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| Fri, 10-27-2006 - 8:25am |
Well...its Friday. Finally. I'm something today, but I'm not sure what, lol. I've not slept in a couple days...a little last night, maybe an hour or two tops, all together. I did have the BEST dream...it was one in which I ran away, and I felt so free...I think it was symbolic in nature...
Whoa...maybe I'm a bit manicky...
But I'm so tired...and still coughing. I'm so sick of being sick!
Its warmer here, will go to the 70s today...but very cloudy, and will storm later.
I don't know what I'm doing this weekend...as I'm broke, probably not much...but I need to get some rest. My parents are moving in a week or so and I have to be better to help them.
DH has been at my house all week, mostly. I'm ready for some alone time...I'd gotten very used to having my house to myself...I think he will go home tonight...
I really need to do some work today...

TGIF !!!
well it took my ds all of three months to get an ear infection since the last tube came out.
God could not be everywhere, so
STOPPIT!
Of course you should have posted.
I'm sorry about Will's ears...Mike had tubes too when he was one...poor thing had ear infections CONSTANTLY too, so I know how that is.
I'm actually kinda glad I don't have a ton to do this weekend.
I just wish I could SLEEP!
Sorry to hear about the kids being sick. It is hard for me to relate cause I have never had kids. But on a lower level Ican relate with the furbabies being sick, and buster is in a fough shape. I dont know where I am today to. I just want o scream with all the bill due and we have NO, NADA, Zip for finances. Steve truck is done and thats $1500, Coal next week And that $350, electric bill is due. And the new wood stove is still in layaway and that $1500 too. Oh yea and my truck payment is due too $380. I guess I better start crapping $100 bills. I guess its time to take things to the pawn shop and see what I can get for it. OH BOY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
huggs, jo
Johanna
DH told me if I didn't go to work today that we would have to sell the house because we are behind in the bills and he is sick of being stressed out. Because we are behind in the bills and he is sick of being stressed out and he doesn't care if I am stressed out and that if I pull this sh*t (of not going into work), they might as well fire me. And in a tone you wouldn't BELIEVE. I think he wants me to snap out of it and that I'm overreacting but of course he wouldn't go that far.
I hope he leaves and takes dd with him. I am over all of it. He thinks he can do it better on his own? Good for him. What if he didn't have my pay at all? I also think, but he hasn't said it outright just little hints, that he thinks I am this way now only because I started all the tdoc and pdoc and meds stuff. I can't wait for him to bring that up. Then I get to tell him how much I have been faking it all these years when he never really knew me at all.
I am sick of the responsibility. I can only handle having to work for living right now in my life and I am barely handling that.
I think that is what this board is for is venting Donna. Know how you feel though, had a hard time getting in the Christmas spirit the last two years (BAH HUMBUG). DS treats Christmas as "What am I gonna get?" time. Maybe a lump of coal ya miserable little....I know not nice, but when his bp and my bp collide I am ready to throttle him.
I can also relate to the ear infections, DS got them all the time untill he was about 9 or so. He never had to have tubes, but the infections would not clear except with the STRONGEST antibiotic out there and that gave him diarhea in the worst way. Lots of fun and when finances are tight it is even more fun....especially when the meds are $100 something a freakin bottle for a 7 day treatment....sometimes a 14 day treatment.
Hang in there and yeah meds may not be a bad idea,
tk
thank you
yeah christmas....don't even want to think about it.
God could not be everywhere, so
I am all for sleep. The Seroquel didnt work as well last night so I was up and down too and then when I finally got 2 hours straight I woke up am my 6 month old puppy had diarrhea in her crate. Lucky me. The 11 month old peed & pooped on the mat instead of the litter box. I have them both more or less litterbox trained.
I also think she should have posted too.
As for me it has been a crappy day. First my poor puppy, then i went to the supermarket and dropped a whole jar of marinara sauce all over me and the floor, then I got to the pet store to get the puppy a sweater (she was shivering this morning) and my credit card got declined. Ahh what a great day for embarassment too.
Whats worse is I am in complete nervous breakdown mode. I cry over everything and I want to kill myself, thinking of ways to do it. I dont want to be doing this day in and day out for the rest of my life. I dont want to get married, the one man I did want to marry wasn't the marrying kind and I left him. We had issues that werent helped with the whole cycling thing, because he never knew which gf he was going to get. The one I am seeing now wants kids and a wife and I just dont see the joy in that. I am almost 29 freaking years old and I cant get my life straight. I make freaking $30.00 an hour and my freaking bills are huge. I dont even have a house! I hate myself! Everything is a mess. I dont want my bf to touch me but since I am aware that he is keeper material I spend time with him. I just want to be left alone. No affection. Nothing. I wish some horrible accident would happen to me and then poof I would be gone.
Ok now I have vented too. Aren't Fridays supposed to be good days?
Oh yeah, open enrollment....especially when they have just changed ALL the plans...."Dear employee, how would you like to get SCR*** THIS year?"
Yes was REALLY worried about hearing loss on about the 2nd or 3rd ear infection when we realized DS and his bacteria were VERY drug resistant....try this ab for 7 days and he will be JUST fine (trust us, wink wink). 2 weeks go by still digging at his ear, try THIS for 14 days and he will be fine....3 weeks go by, still digging at his ear....ya get the picture. If I remember right it took them 3 tries before the pediatrician said "All RIGHTY then! Try this, it is the strongest on the market and if he doesn't respond to that will have to put tubes in." Thank God that worked, but LORD the diapers and the burnt butt, I think he got blisters from that one. After that, we just told the doctors, "You're going to have to give him the strongest there is or it won't touch it". One pediatrician didn't believe us and gave us a mid range type....we were back at the end of treatment and said "NEXT". Yep, lots of fun. Why should I be surprised, hard headed little (well not so little anymore, the boy is as tall as I am and is no where NEAR done growing yet) so and so that he is? Why should his germs be any different.
Lost my dad in April, my sympathies. We weren't REAL close, but I had gotten used to turning to him for mechanic type answers. I STILL find myself in a conversation saying "I'll call my dad, he'd know....Durn it, can't do that now". An awful lot of mechanical knowledge went down with him....on the old cars anyway. He didn't much care for these new computerized vehicles. Just typing this gets something in my eye DURN IT....men aren't supposed to cry....especially at work where it is predominantly male.
Better go before I drag you down even more Donna,
tk
I'm so sorry about your dad :o(
God could not be everywhere, so