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| Tue, 10-31-2006 - 11:27pm |
Peg,
I have a friend who is an addictions counselor. I met this lady when i went to
| Tue, 10-31-2006 - 11:27pm |
Peg,
I have a friend who is an addictions counselor. I met this lady when i went to
Hi Tina,
Thank you for emailing your friend, I appreciate it.
I could have written the last portion of your post about attending church. I especially agree with some people being "fake". There are people who attend but just go through the motions, which is so hypocritical to me. Then they leave the church and say how wonderful they are because they attened faithfully. I'm speaking from my own experience here, especially with my parents and I am not generalizing to everyone who attends church. They did and continue to hide behind their religion to not accept responsibility for things. Sorry, I'm venting a little here, it's a sore subject. I'm not trying to start a debate or offend anyone, that is not my intention.
Anyway, I do pray to God. I do believe in miracles and faith. It's the "structure" of the church that I have a problem with. I used to be extremely involved with my religion and my church, until I was a teenager and had my "encounter" with a Catholic priest. That man took away the ONLY protection I had, the church. I turned to religion and religious leaders to give me a safe spot from my father, yet the same thing ended up happening there. I know I am generalizing by totally walking away from the church due to one man, but that is how much it hurt. I do go back, from time to time when I am strong enough. I'm just not emotionally strong enough to attend right now. I do though, as I stated above, pray, especially for strength and healing. I pray for myself and others. I do believe in a higher power, there is just something about the 12 step program that doesn't settle right with me. I can't explain it, but it has to do with the higher power part; maybe it's my fear of opening up, being trusting, and getting hurt again by group.
I do not feel like you are preaching to me. I do will make it through with the help of others and I will gain my inner strength back. There are times when my faith has helped me a lot. I am slowly learning to trust again, it's just hard to keep reading about the priest abuse and hearing about it on tv. It makes it hard for that wound to heal.
Thank you again for your support. I appreciate everything everyone has said to me here to support me. I know I cannot walk this bp road alone and it is comforting to so many of you walking with me.
Hugs,
Peg
Peg, I can't even BEGIN to imagine what you have been through....I don't see how someone can do things to their DD's....for myself it would completely KILL me if I saw fear and hurt in my DD's eyes when she looks at me. I could not, in any way shape form or fashion, handle being the cause of the loss of her innocence. As for the priest abuse, what else is there to say, inexcusable....like you said, that is SUPPOSED to be a sanctuary....for so many to have lost that. I feel like I should apologize for the male of our species sometimes. Anyway, I hope I didn't trigger anything, just I feel for you....not much else to say.
I also wanted to comment on the 12 step programs....I too have some unsettled feelings about those programs. For myself I think it is a case of "God" not having "helped" me with having bp, much less "helping" me function with it, how the heck is "God" going to help me kick an addiction. Also, so much of my life is out of control as it is, now someone is going to tell me I can't control some other part of my life....don't buy it. I too am not judging anyone, tired of being judged myself....especially for being told by "religous" types that I am evil and going to hell because I believe in ghosts and spirits and that there is definitely forces out there we don't know about or don't WANT to know about. I will get off that rant before I REALLY offend someone.
Good luck,
tk
I believe in ghosts and spirits.....and that there are signs around us that our loved ones show/share with us so we know they are ok.
God could not be everywhere, so
Yep, I see we are on the same page there. What you said is why we didn't have a priest at my dad's funeral. The WHOLE family (all 6 kids and mother) felt the idea of a "priest" at my fathers funeral was kind of ridiculous. The only one who might have objected was his older sister and she was not able to make it to object, so we had several of us kids stand up and talk about what we remembered about the man who was our father....I had a hard time, couldn't keep a steady voice, but I did it....felt I needed to. Afterward, EVERYONE agreed it was a good appropriate "service" for my dad. Solemn, without alot of pomp and frills....that was the kind of man he was....dad approved I think.
Seems we all climb up on our soapboxes now and then....I know I have driven away a few so called "friends" because I have some STRONGLY held beliefs....the ones who have stayed with me have the same belief system, so we get along real well. LOL.
tk