I'm back

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Registered: 07-14-2005
I'm back
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Thu, 11-09-2006 - 10:14am

Hey guys,

Well- I guess my perfect non-bipolar world couldn't last forever. When I got out of the hospital everything was so wonderful I thought it was just over and done with. Now it's like that was just some sort of tease which makes things worse now because I know they CAN be good.

I'm just back to not wanting to go on. Wanting everyone to go away. I have this wonderful boyfriend who is there for me no matter what and I just want to dump him. I want to move out of my house. I don't want to go to school...

I had this job... 6 hours a day, 7 days a week. It was pretty easy front desk at an athletic club. It was too stressful for me. Everything is too stressful. I'm like a damn porcelin doll.

I want my month long wonderful life back. Now I'm on tegretol, klonopin, geodon, lamictal, wellbutrin, and topomax and they just don't work. I'm stuck with this forever. And now it's just even worse because I know it can be better.

Frusturated.
Meg

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Registered: 04-06-2005
In reply to: meggem2005
Thu, 11-09-2006 - 10:29am

Hi Meg !!


I'm glad you had a good month after i/p....sorry things are going back to bad.

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Registered: 05-22-2006
In reply to: meggem2005
Thu, 11-09-2006 - 3:46pm

Welcome to the Club, Meg. You are now a truly full-fledged member.... No blinders on anymore...

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Registered: 04-07-2002
In reply to: meggem2005
Thu, 11-09-2006 - 8:53pm

{{{{{{{{{Meg}}}}}}}}

Bipolar isn't so bad when you get stabilized, but for me that took *nine* years, and even after that I was hospitalized a few times. I know I cannot deal with as much stress as other people, and I have come to accept that and work with it. Even now, I am probably going to change schools to get away from Dr. Idi Amin...

Chances are, you have a long, bumpy road ahead of you. I could get religious here, but I won't since I don't think you believe. But, what doesn't kill us makes us stronger.

Express!
Beth "Petrouchka"