Whinny Wednesday

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Whinny Wednesday
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Wed, 11-15-2006 - 11:16am

Well...it's Wednesday and I'm not sure about any of you, but today's not much better....I'm trying tho.


I've been up since 3:45am (not by choice) and didn't get to go back to sleep.

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Wed, 11-15-2006 - 11:54am

I'm in a I don't care mood. Having suicidal thoughts. No one is here. I am alone. DD called and left message to say she was sorry but I haven't talked to her. I can't deal with ANYTHING right now.


Tina




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Wed, 11-15-2006 - 12:06pm

I'm right there with you Tina. Feel the same way.

Don't even care.

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Wed, 11-15-2006 - 2:10pm

I am sorry everyone is having a terrible day - I can understand it though. This is the first day I actually feel good and I think it's because I have a wonderful tdoc, who I saw at my lunchtime today. I go every week and while I have the pre-dread, I am always glad at the end because I feel better. She really "gets" me.
I have pdoc at 4 pm today as well and I've only ever seen him once before. So I am unsure but thrilled just to be out of work an hour early.
My insomnia is back full force lately so I am hoping I will get something better than Ambien today. It's just not working for me.

Hugs to everyone, Kelli





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Wed, 11-15-2006 - 2:42pm
this might sound strange, but have you tried benedryl?
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Wed, 11-15-2006 - 3:09pm

Actually, I know all those tricks. My personal favorite was Nyquil Nighttime - those purple liquid caplets. Tylendol PM just gave me hangovers and benadryl didn't last long enough. After awhile, I found that when I had a cold that my body was so used to them, they didn't work anymore! So I went back to Ambien. My type of insomnia is not the falling asleep part, that's rare for me, it's the 2-4 AM wake up and stay up or toss and turn only issues. I heard Ambien CR is good for that. Sonata didn't work for me at all.
Oh well, fingers crossed, as usual, I do that a lot!

Pug hugs, Kelli





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Wed, 11-15-2006 - 3:31pm
oh i hate that !!!
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Wed, 11-15-2006 - 7:11pm

Well, I'm late in posting this, but I'm here finally. I'm not sure how I'm doing to be honest. I am not raging like I was when I found out about xh's termination, but am still po'd about the situation. I think the cymbalta is working because my depression isn't near as bad as it was. I saw tdoc today and she was impressed with the way I was handling all this. I asked her if I could have my sharps back and she said no, that I was still too shaky and that we'd discuss it more next week. That brought me down some. Then my focus at work has been non-existent. I completely missed one bus stop this afternoon because my mind was on how this second job is going to affect my schooling. I also blew through a red light. Neither of these moves were particularly good. I've got to get my focus back. Then I realized something else about me taking the second job. My kids can't cook and my mom just doesn't cook, so I don't know what they're going to do for dinner on the nights that I work. So that's an added worry. Have I mentioned how much I hate my xh for putting me in this position?!?!?!?!?


Ok, that's my whine for the day. Thanks for letting me vent.


Traci

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Thu, 11-16-2006 - 8:00am
Babe, I know life is sucking right now, especially because of xh, but I gotta say that I am glad my dd is not on your bus! :)
One solution might be to cook heavy on Sundays (or pick a day) and then tupperware it out and freeze it. That just leaves a overnight defrost and heat up. Surely one of them can handle that? It shouldn't ALL be on you, maybe it's time the kids stepped up with household chores like cooking, laundry, whatever? Just trying to helpful.
Many hugs Traci, Kelli





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Thu, 11-16-2006 - 8:02am

Nix! He told me to take more Ambien and see how that works out! I have to call him in 2 weeks so I think I am just going to straight out ask him for Ambien CR.

Almost Friday! Kelli





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