*SIGH* (Perhaps a trig or two)

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*SIGH* (Perhaps a trig or two)
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Fri, 11-17-2006 - 12:32pm

I don't understand it. It goes against my personality to be like this. I'm usually quite laid back. But in the evenings, especially evening where I have to take the kids out in rush-hour traffic. I blow a gasket every time. I can't see how others would want to be around me: I hate being around me. Stupid Bipolar anyways!!

And my mood which had been baseline for a least a week (a couple of weeks ago) straight is now back in the toilet and has been for about the last week. A day or two ago it was nearly baseline, but not quite. Last night, however, was awful. My husband's presence both made things were and prevented things from escalating (Complex I know, but that's the story of my life). I thoroughly hated myself. I wanted to die (no plan, though). Things are a little better this morning, but I dread the time that I have to go pick up DH.

Oh yeah, and DH is going through a depressive episode too.

*sigh*

I'm exhausted.

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Fri, 11-17-2006 - 12:49pm

I can totally relate...wow. I don't know how to deal with it, but just keep on keeping on. I'm glad you posted, I was wondering how you were doing.

Love and Hugs,

Keli