Very Angry Right Now - LONG!
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| Mon, 11-20-2006 - 3:34pm |
I go to church. I believe in healing and have been praying for about six years for healing of Bipolar Disorder. So far, NOTHING! I have become very close to a woman at church who prays for me on a regular basis. Well, I have had shingles for the past month and haven't been able to go to church until yesterday. I've been gone a month. She has also been praying for me for the shingles and I wasn't able to give her an update. So, I emailed her and in my email I said the doctor said I had to keep my life stress free and calm so I wouldn't activate the nerve damage to my right breast and back. I stated in my email to her that this would be hard because of my Bipolar Disorder, but that I felt with God's help he could help keep my mind and life calm. So, she replied to my email that she believes my Bipolar days are over and she'll be glad when I quit worrying about it!!!! How can I not worry about it? It's part of my life every damn day! Plus I have an anxiety disorder so I worry about everything.
I am so mad right now. I could scream!!! I thought this lady really understood where I was coming from. I thought finally someone in my church understands. Nobody gets it!!! I don't know why I even share it with anyone. The only person who can possibly understand is someone who has the illness appearently. I think I'm going to back off of talking to this person for awhile. Who needs it!!! Am I taking this too personal? Should I just forgive and forget and let the statement just roll right off of me?
Jena


That's a really personal choice. Those type of reactions are why I haven't told anyone but my two closest IRL friends and my dh - outside of this board. As far as I'm concerned, it's nobody else's business.
As for the church part, I am non-religious as I find the whole of it very hypocritical.
Good luck with your decision, sorry I couldn't be more help!
Pug hugs, Kelli