physically sick (poss trigs)
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physically sick (poss trigs)
| Mon, 11-20-2006 - 5:08pm |
It's been a while since I've posted. I'm feeling physically sick at this point. Stress of everyday life is taking over my body and I don't know what to do. I know that I have too much on my plate but I've always been that kind of a person. I enjoy staying busy. I am very upset with H and his complete laziness and view of self medicating his depression with alcohol. I keep telling myself that he is sick and I need to stay by him "in sickness and in health". It's just that I have problems too and I don't know if I can handle all of this right now. I have developed Irritable Bowel Syndroms, can't sleep and don't think that my Lamictal is doing a darn thing these days. I even upped the dosage on my own from 200 to 250. Nothing! I'm trying to make an appt. with pdoc but no one is answering the phone. Tdoc quit and moved away and I haven't seen anyone since. Don't really have time, working 40 hours a week and going to school two nights a week and raising two kids AND finishing a basement BY MYSELF because DH is too incompitent and doesn't give a rip about any of it. I just want to go off on him so badly but I'm afraid to. I'm afraid to tell him what I think about him because I don't know if it's really me or stress or BP talking. I literally feel like running screaming into the night. What in the world can I do?

Well you just have to keep going. For yourself and your children, you have a lot going for you and it will pay off in the long run. As far a H he will surely sober up soon, just keep praying, and as far as him not helping and being lazy, I can for sure relate to that, my husband moves heavy equipment and will work 6 days a week, but the 14 years that we have been together he has not ( or does not) lift a finger to do anything around the house or to help me. That is just a man thing. If you vented to him, you would probley say thing you didn't mean to and until you get your med's lined out, a lot of it would probley be the BP talking. Hope thing get better, we are all here for you.
Shelia
Sounds like it's been really hard for you lately. Find a new tdoc so you can get some relief! I too work FT and usually go on my lunch hour to squeeze it in every week. Perhaps you could try that? Keep trying for your pdoc too, hopefully they will answer their phone!
Many hugs, Kelli
To quote from the 70's--Keep on keeping on!