Just got back from tdoc - Pos. Trigs.

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Registered: 05-02-2006
Just got back from tdoc - Pos. Trigs.
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Wed, 11-22-2006 - 4:11pm

My mood has improved. Although I'm in a mixed mood right now I'm not thinking about si finally. My libido is through the roof and my temper is as short as short can be and I may be a little depressed but that's it. And the depression is no big surprise........yesterday marked the 3 year anniversary of my dad's death.


Anyway, I told her I had a friend through the internet in Arizona who si'd and was afraid to tell her tdoc for fear of being hospitalized and I asked tdoc if that would happen. She said that it depends on the individual therapist. She said if it was her, she would see it as a cry for help and she would work with the individual instead of putting the person in the hospital. Now even though I have no intentions right now of cutting I wanted to know where I'd stand if I did. And I knew if I asked her for myself she wouldn't give me my sharps back. Well, I asked her for my sharps back and she told me she wanted to hold on to them through the holidays. So my hypothetical story meant nothing at all as far as me getting my sharps back, except I do know now that she won't commit me if I ever do cut. She did say some therapists will commit you for cutting, but she is not one of them. Unless it's a blatant su attempt.


I guess what this all boils down to is I want my sharps back and she won't give them to me. God why do I have to be so messed up????? I don't know why I want them back so badly, but I just do. Maybe it's just a control issue. I don't know. Thanks for listening.


Traci

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Registered: 09-01-2004
Fri, 11-24-2006 - 3:20pm

Traci,


Maybe it's a control issue and maybe you were just testing the waters to see if she'll help keep you safe--obviously she will!

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Registered: 10-27-2006
Fri, 11-24-2006 - 4:58pm

Sounds like she is just trying to keep you safe. And, I agree around the Holidays is a triggering time for us. Hope you had a great thanksgiving

shelia