Morning...

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Tue, 11-28-2006 - 9:25am

Hope everyone is okay this morning. I'm okay. Feeling better. Had a huge struggle within myself last night about continuing the meds I'm on. I'm only on a bare minimum of meds now, and I still struggle...wonder how I would be off them completely? Someone please tell me NOT to do this.

I have to call the stupid pdoc today and ask for refills on my meds. I'm going to ask for 20mgs of Lexapro, not 10, like she recommended, but she won't do it. That will make me mad...oh well.

I'm going back to the gym tonight after work with my very close friend/co-worker. We go 2x a week, and it helps...I haven't been in months and months...I'm excited! Summer comes so early for us here in FLA, and i'm not letting another summer pass me by while I'm sitting around depressed about my weight!!!

I want to lose 40 pounds by June. I know I can do it. I've done it before.

I need everyone's help with something...major support. An old friend called me last night, and wants to party this weekend...I cannot and will not go back to this kind of life...but I'm weak and I need your help...tell me NOT to go. This will be very bad for my BP and my finances. I'm trying to reach out, but its so hard...this is a huge temptation for me, and I do NOT want to sabotage myself.

Anyway, just my updates...

Love to all,

Keli

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Registered: 04-06-2005
In reply to: keli003
Tue, 11-28-2006 - 9:57am

Make plans with Eric, with someone other then this so called old time friend....they are not a friend if they want to sabatoge you in any way...period, end of story.

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Registered: 04-27-2006
In reply to: keli003
Tue, 11-28-2006 - 9:59am

You want the pdoc to Rx 20mgs of Laexapro and your scared she won't, so why would you even think about going off meds???? If you know you function better with 20mgs than 10mgs? Ok so we know Keli needs to stay on meds...next thing...


DO NOT GO OUT AND PARTY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


This will mess you up, and like you already said, you will be sabatoging yourself. You have worked too hard to get out of this lifestyle don't go back. I know it is hard because you want to escape for a little while and have fun but that fun will make you feel worse after it's all over. I hope it works out.


That is great you are going to go workout with your friend. It is always nicer to work out with someone than alone.


Love U


Tina




     ~ Tina ~

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Registered: 08-11-2006
In reply to: keli003
Tue, 11-28-2006 - 11:40am

I can not imagine trying to handle the wide mood swings without medication. The ones I dealt with for years without meds was bad enough....looking back from a medicated view point now. Pdoc just upped me to 150 mg's of Lamictal, working up slowly to see if I need that high a dose....he says I was still having to many and deep of depressive episodes....irritability controlled pretty well, but having to many down times (he says).

I am not the one to come to about not going out to party, BUT, having said that if this is the illegal drug kind of partying and/or you have trouble stopping with just one drink, DON'T GO....it took many years before I had enough self-confidence and control to tell my "buddies" who kept egging me to drink more that one was PLENTY for me. Don't take that as a judgement, I understand only too well how hard it is to say that is enough when someone else is buying and stacking drinks in front of ya.

Anyhoo, DON'T DO IT, to both. Stay on your meds and don't go party, especially if you know it will only get you in trouble.

tk

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Registered: 10-27-2006
In reply to: keli003
Tue, 11-28-2006 - 12:02pm

Hello Keli
Good morning to you also. Think postive on your pdoc phone call. Maybe she will give you 20mg. And, the party, your right it won't be good for your BP. But #$@% sometimes we need to let our hair down. It is christmas time so be sure that is what you won't to do. You've got all week to make up your mind. The gym sounds like fun tonight and it will be good for you also. Have a great day and take care.

Later
Shelia

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Registered: 05-02-2006
In reply to: keli003
Tue, 11-28-2006 - 12:11pm

((((((((keli)))))))) i'm 100% with donna, tina and tk on this one. stay on your meds! if 20 mgs of the a/d makes you feel better going off them makes no sense right?


as for the partying, the "hardest" i ever did was a little smoke back in high school and it caused me to have seizures so i stopped because it just wasn't worth it. but knowing you have struggled with this before, i have to say tell this "friend" NO!!! they can't be that good of a friend if they want you to undermine your mental health as well as your physical health.


i know the words sound so plain but believe me, staying on your meds is the right thing to do (and coming from me that means something) and partying is not an option. stay with eric or go out with other friends that don't party. i, too, am tempted to go off my meds, but the big difference is IF i do it i will go i/p and do it supervised so that i can clean out my system and start from scratch. that would be the only way i'd do that and this is an option i've been giving a lot of thought to lately.


i hope this helps you. stay strong. you can do the right things. i know you can.


remember we're here for you and we do love you.


traci

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Registered: 05-22-2006
In reply to: keli003
Tue, 11-28-2006 - 12:11pm

DO... NOT... DO... IT...

Don't go - ain't worth it - not ever

Pug hugs, Kelli





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Registered: 10-27-2006
In reply to: keli003
Tue, 11-28-2006 - 12:45pm

Well Keli, after reading the other boards reply's. THEY ARE RIGHT AND I AM WRONG!!!!! do not go out!!! I sorry I said everyone need to let there hair down. But Like I said I WASD WRONG!!!

Sorry guys

Shelia

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Registered: 03-25-2003
In reply to: keli003
Tue, 11-28-2006 - 1:10pm

Sheila!!!

You're not WRONG!!! I so know what you mean about letting your hair down. But what I'm referring to is the kind of partying that could get you into legal trouble...lol.

Hugs to you honey!

Keli

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Registered: 10-27-2006
In reply to: keli003
Tue, 11-28-2006 - 4:50pm

Hey Keli, is ther another kind of partying!! LOL LOL

take care girl

shelia

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Registered: 11-28-2006
In reply to: keli003
Wed, 11-29-2006 - 11:11am
Hello Keli,
Please don't stop your medications.You will spiral downwards very fast.Please take one day at the time and try to stay strong.I know it is not easy but you can do it.
You are in my thoughts and prayers. Love ,maria
Love , Maria

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