Manic flights of fancy
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| Wed, 11-29-2006 - 7:44pm |
I had my last major manic episode in 1999. During that time, I had a crazy idea: "I love conducting so much, why don't I go to school for an MM in conducting?" Well, as many of you know crazy ideas that come upon us in mania often don't last long, but I applied to school, was accepted, and in spring 2002 had that MM. I happily bragged to my pdocs and tdocs that I had a manic ideation that something came of. But, looking back, I think it was a waste. I found out while in school that someone with my retarded social skills can't handle the politics of conducting on the collegiate and professional levels. I went into teaching, but my teaching job the next year was a disaster and I didn't get credit I could use for teacher certification in Ontario now. Now, I am years away from teacher certification and don't know if it will ever happen. Sigh.
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Beth "Petrouchka"

beth i understand about the dream seeming so far away. right now my degree seems like it will never happen. my tdoc keeps pushing me to work toward it and won't let me give up. she keeps telling me it will happen, even with me as much of a mess as i am right now. so if it's possible for me, i know it's got to be possible for you. hang in there.
traci
Really Beth an Traci, your right its never to late. Alot of women don't even start living there own life till the kids are grown. I'm mean heck time is all we have. Right??
Has anyone got all there Christmas stuff up??
Shelia
Well, live and learn - right? Can't change the past. I know - all platitudes but still, sometimes you just have to keep plowing forward, as endless as it may seem.
Hugs to you, hope you feel better soon, Kelli
Congratulations on the degree....I myself started working for a Bachelors in Mechanical Engineering about 10 yrs ago and was doing good until I ran into Calculus II and then some moving and depression and here I sit no closer to a degree and if I started trying again I would have to go back (AGAIN) and pick up the math classes....when ya don't use it ya lose it.
Thankfully I am in a profession that doesn't judge one on social skills and actually approves of someone willing to speak their mind and d*** the consequences. LOL.
tk