I can't do this
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| Mon, 12-11-2006 - 8:36am |
I'm a mess...off all meds...but titrating up on Lamictal...course that takes 2 months...
I am going through the most horrific withdrawals from Lexapro.
I am so cycling...so fast...went from crying hysterically and couldn't stop ALL DAY friday, to being very very very angry, irritable, frustrated and raging. Its really bad this morning...I'm also very paranoid, and I can't stand that.
Was on Risperdal for the "meantime" but it made me gain 10 pounds in 6 days...so that's out too.
I can't do this much longer.
I hate everyone in my life right now...myself most. Stupid pdoc won't do anything...just have to "wait".
I can't go i/p, or i sooooooo would. no leave tine left from work, have to find a place to move in the next week, the holidays, AAAAAAAGGGGGHHHH!
Just can't do this.

as for me,my old doc did very well keeping me on the egde of mania,but when i went off....disaster.in my opinion no doc should do this unless you ARE i/p.
geeeze,they even give addicts methadone.
this has been going on with you for a long time...why is your dr. playing with you like this?have you told him?
I told her on Friday...but its worse now...oh, yeah, she said to take more lithium...I CANNOT TAKE MORE! I can't tolerate it...I hate her...so, since I didn't come pick up the rx for more li, she won't do much...whatever.
My dh is NOT being very supportive either, and I hate him too.
I am telling you, I would SOOOOO go i/p right now if i could...
You need to call pdoc NOW and tell her how bad off you are. Tell her she needs to do something to keep you from going i/p. This is crazy that a pdoc would put you through this.
I am sorry to hear dh is not being supportive...what is wrong with him???
Do you know where your moving? Is dh going to help with that at all?
The only med you are on right now is a low low dose of Lamictal? and the low dose of Li?
Call that dam* pdoc and tell her she has to help you. I am so mad for you.
Love you and big hugs,
Tina
~ Tina ~
(((((((((((((((((((((keli)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))) you and i are in the same place and it sucks. but i just wanted to give you some hugs and let you know that i'm here. i'm a mess right now, but nonetheless, i'm here and love you. hang in there hon. you are the strongest person i know. you've fought this before and won, you will win this time too. you're up against a lot right now, i know. tdoc told me yesterday that if my mood doesn't start improving she will have to put me i/p. i told her no way in hell......not this close to christmas. i can't do that to my kids. so i can understand the stress there. just hold on and we'll work through this together. k?
love you,
traci