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Registered: 03-25-2003
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Fri, 12-15-2006 - 12:00pm

I'm back...I was so very sick from withdrawals...then, of course, my moods starting swinging up and up and down and down and both and everything in between. It was so bad. I was ready to check myself into the hospital because I just couldn't take it anymore, but I did take it, and I am making it through. Its getting a little better, but still its not wonderful. However, I'm not suicidal, and manic and everything all together. My poor dh and ds...ugh. Oh well.

Anyway, I got back to work this a.m. and my boss had emailed me...some crap about he "understood my reconciliations were behind". It only means the witch secretary told on me...she has to review them after I reconcile and they are a month behind...but she didn't have to tell on me...then he said he would continue to be supportive where he could, but my unplanned absences (with my mother and this stupid withdrawal mess) "caused a hardship" on other support staff...yeah, right. Whatever.

So, I have been here since 6 a.m. Couldnt' sleep so I came to work thinking I could jump start the day, and get some work done. And I have. Nothing is now behind, and in fact by next week, I'll be ahead. So I sent my boss this long email, very detailed, listing all my assignments and their status.

Whatever.

Why is it that we always seem to get pushed back down when we work so hard to get up??? I'm so sick of that. I was ready to quit this morning...my job, life, everything...will be very very glad when the holidays are DONE.

I've missed everyone.

I got pdoc to call me in some Lithium...I was out of that for a week too, and THAT caused MAJOR cycling...I'm not one that can EVER be off meds...learned that (again) the hard way.

I don't know if I have time today to get caught up with everyone, just know I love you all.

Keli

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Registered: 04-27-2006
In reply to: keli003
Fri, 12-15-2006 - 12:23pm

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     ~ Tina ~

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Registered: 10-27-2006
In reply to: keli003
Fri, 12-15-2006 - 6:16pm

Keli

Glad your back, I think about all the board has been disoriented in some way or the other. Sorry about the BS at work, that will get better. Do they know that you are BP?

Always try and keep close eye on meds running out can be bad they say, that is one thing I have never done. I always check a couple of weeks ahead.

take care
shelia

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Registered: 09-01-2004
In reply to: keli003
Fri, 12-15-2006 - 7:40pm

Keli,


I just 'love" the way some people can't wait to kick you when you're down--I hope Santa leaves nothing but coal and big credit card bills behind for that jerk secretary!


Honey, you are a SURVIVOR--you are strong and you have and will continue to win this battle.