i'm doing it

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i'm doing it
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Fri, 01-05-2007 - 5:00pm

i will be mia for a few days. i am finally going i/p effective tuesday of next week. i probably won't be around much this weekend or on monday 'cause i've got stuff i've got stuff to do before i go.


i won't lie, i'm scared to do this. it's all very new to me and makes me feel (no offense to those of you who have been i/p before) weak. i've struggled with this decision for going on three years now but pdoc and tdoc teamed up together and convinced me that this was the right decision at the right time. so i called today and scheduled the intake appointment. i explained that i had to wait until tuesday and the lady i talked to said that was ok, but if i got worse to call or come in sooner. she didn't like the fact that i have guns in the house. they pose no threat though, as there is no ammunition to go with them, but she didn't let me get that part in. oh well.


anyway, the decision has been made and the first step has been taken. i ask that you all keep me in your thoughts and prayers over the next few days and hope that this trip is successful. you all have been so very supportive thus far. i really don't think i could have survived without you all. thanks again.


traci

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Registered: 09-14-2003
Fri, 01-05-2007 - 5:39pm

Hugs to you, Traci. This will be a good thing for you, a vacation of sorts. I am very new to all of this and am having kind of a hard time myself, but I want to let you know that I will be thinking of you. This may be exactly what you need and afterwards you will be grateful you did it.

Hugs again and thinking of you....

Camp

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Registered: 04-27-2006
Fri, 01-05-2007 - 5:46pm

Traci,


Going i/p and facing your issues and mental illness is a very strong thing to do. You will have to do work there on yourself and that is no where near being weak. Hiding from taking care of the issues is weak. Try to think of it like if you were an alcoholic/drug addict and needed rehab. It would be weak to not go and keep up the same behavior, but going would make you grow and become more knowledgable to deal with your addiction. Well, going i/p for mental health issues is on the same track. You are going to help yourself grow and get better.


I am so proud of you for doing this. I truely hope you will get alot out of this i/p time. I will pray for you to have good people working with you to help you learn coping skills and how to deal with the ups and downs. I will also pray for them to get you on a great med combo. Hang in there and please let us know how you are when you return home. I will be thinking about you while you are in there sweetie.


Big hugs and love


Tina




     ~ Tina ~

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Registered: 09-01-2004
Fri, 01-05-2007 - 6:13pm

Traci,


I fought going i/p for a long time (and suffered pretty needlessly because of it) because I viewed it as the last resort and there was no more hope for me if I went.

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Mon, 01-08-2007 - 9:27am

You are not weak by going i/p !!!

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Mon, 01-08-2007 - 10:26am

(((((((((((((((((((((((Traci)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))
By no means are you weak for going I/P.
It takes courage to do so.
I hope that while you are in there, they help

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Mon, 01-08-2007 - 7:27pm

Hi Traci,

My thoughts and prayers are with you dear.

Namaste,
Vicki

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Registered: 07-22-2006
Mon, 01-08-2007 - 8:25pm

Traci,

You are such a strong person! I look up to you and others on this board for strength and support. You are taking care of yourself and that is not a sign of weakness, it is a sign of strength.

You are in my thoughts and prayers.

Hugs,
Peg

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Registered: 05-02-2006
Mon, 01-08-2007 - 9:54pm

thank you all for your p & pt and hugs. i'm very nervous about tomorrow, but i know that it's something that needs to be done. i've been in the dark place for entirely too long and it's time to find that light at the end of the tunnel people keep telling me about. my tdoc and pdoc are both 100% behind me on this and really the key instigators of this. otherwise i never would have agreed to go. tdoc taking me to the er right after christmas was my wake up call as to how close to the edge i was. so i will go tomorrow with hope that this is the fix that i need and that i can keep the trend going once i get out as well. i know tdoc and pdoc will do their best to keep me on track. i just have to make sure i keep myself on track and not fall into the rut again. so with this, i will say i will see you in a few (?) days. i hope everyone has good days while i'm gone..


hugs & love,
traci