Depression on Prozac
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| Tue, 02-27-2007 - 9:22am |
I have been taking Prozac 10 mg for about 10 days now. I usually respond to it very quickly, but this time it is working slowly.
I think what brought on this nasty depression (that has lasted about a month) is the fact that I can't seem to find a job. To me right now, there is a simple reason I can't find a job. There is no reason to hire me. I am fat thanks to years of using old-fashioned bp meds, and Asperger Syndrome makes me some sort of alien no one understands. What could have been my one chance to work at a community music school that offers private lessons (what I really want to do right now) was ruined by a kid who had a temper tantrum saying I didn't know what I was doing. Maybe it's true. Maybe I don't know what I'm doing. My B.A. and M.M. in music represent years of time I didn't learn anything. I didn't have the knack for music (why I was accepted in those programs in the first place is something I can't explain.)
What do I do now? Take some customer service job that I have to lie and tell them I have no college degrees to get?
Express.
Beth "Petrouchka"

10 mgs of Prozac is a very very low dose first off. Your pdoc may need to up it to 20mgs. I know for some bipolars antidepressants can trigger mania but if you are this depressed it may need to be increased temporarily. Sweetie, your self esteem is so low and you beat yourself up all the time so it isn't no wonder you are depressed. Do you see a tdoc? Can you see one if you are not seeing one? In my opinion you need some professional support in getting your self esteem up. You know meds only can do so much for us. If we keep thinking negative thoughts than we will defeat the meds a great deal. I have been there before and I understand how hard it can be. I struggle to, but you can't give up on yourself and beat yourself up all the time. You are smart and worth hiring. Maybe you also need some career counseling. Do you feel you are in the right field? Does it make you happy? Do you need to direct your education in another field? You have made it through college so you are smart and capable. Now you need to believe in yourself.
Hugs,
Tina
~ Tina ~