few qeustions.."Triggers"

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Registered: 05-04-2003
few qeustions.."Triggers"
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Mon, 03-05-2007 - 1:39pm

ok maybe just one...

I know I've kind of asked this one before, but I guess I'm in some sort of denial...but then, I guess there is only one kind.

How do(did) you know when it is(was) time to go to the hospital? Did you just go? Did your pdoc have to send you? Or did you self-admit? If so, what did you say?

The way I've been feeling lately has been scaring me. I mean, I haven't been wanting to hurt myself or anything, but I've thought to myself, "what would happen if..." All day yesterday, I felt "off"..I've been suffering from a cold...and PMSing...The PMSing caused the "normal" manic attacks....and yesterday, I suddenly cried(to myself, sucked it up before anyone saw), over a co-workers actions/words. Then last night...or I should say this moring, I spent 1 1/2-2 hrs crying over not spending enough time with my kids, not being able to do the things I used to do with, because I'm working. I just could not stop crying.....I guess you can say, I finally cried myself to sleep....I slept a total of 5hrs...and now today, I feel like I can/will cry at the drop of a pin...

So..I know I have a lot of ???'s .....but with NO-ONE being able to see me, because their not "in Network"....Its getting pretty hard...and my tdoc, doesn't want to start anymore of her "treatment" until I get on meds..which I can understand...she doesn't want to overwhelm me...

ok...done....I think...at least for now...

TIA

<3 Nessa

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Registered: 04-07-2002
Mon, 03-05-2007 - 3:03pm

I have been I/P many times, and usually it was time to go when I started feeling suicidal. Sometimes a pdoc sent me, sometimes I self-admitted. It was usually helpful.

If I were you, I would not be shy about going to the er.

Express!
Beth "Petrouchka"

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Registered: 09-01-2004
Mon, 03-05-2007 - 4:30pm

**TRIGGERS**


Nessa,


At least in the last few years, I've always taken myself in because I realized I was in danger of suicide to the point that I was afraid if I didn't go I/P I wouldn't make it.