Mixed episodes suck

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Mixed episodes suck
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Mon, 04-30-2007 - 1:29pm

I miss the productive mania of even just a few days ago. Instead, now I'm still irritable (especially with my girls and husband), tons of thoughts, ruminating thoughts...along with the decreased energy, basically passing out asleep at my computer every night by 9:30 while I'm trying to work, down mood with agitation. Sucks. I read a sentence of my work and then have to re-read it at least a couple of times to make sense of it. Aaaarrghhh!

I hope the ruminating thoughts don't lead to delusions. If they don't go away they frequently lead to a religiously based delusion, one of my two recurring delusions. Anyone else have delusions? If so, when you're delusional do you remain functional with pretty normal thinking in areas other then the delusion?

It'll be nice not to have so darn many thoughts at the same time again, hopefully soon.

Sorry to go on and on. I don't talk about this stuff to anyone though, so this is the only place I have to get some of this stuff out of my head.

Kristen

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Tue, 05-01-2007 - 12:41am

BTDT & I agree!

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Tue, 05-01-2007 - 11:26am

I used to have bad mixed episodes too and they are NO fun. I hope you start to balance out soon. I still have trouble reading sometimes and have to re read a sentence but I think it is from my ADD.


Tina




     ~ Tina ~

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Tue, 05-01-2007 - 2:05pm

Hi Marci. Well, I like your Spanish speaking delusion! That would certainly come in handy, as I am just north of the Mexican border!

Yeah, the delusions aren't a lot of fun, particularly the relious one and ideas of reference. Thankfully, my thinking right now is only really delusional. Delusional thoughts occur, but then pass pretty quickly. Nothing that's hanging around at the moment.

I have the productive mania feeling today...speeded up, but I unfortunately can't seem to channel that into super-productive work mode (hard time concentrating) or mega-housecleaning mode. Can't win 'em all!

Peace,
Kristen

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Tue, 05-01-2007 - 2:06pm

Thanks Tina. I hope you're doing well today!

Kristen