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| Thu, 05-03-2007 - 3:50pm |
Hi all,
I've visited this board before but it's been a very long time. I was diagnosed Bipolar II in March 2004. I'm currently on 300 mg of Lamictal, 10 mg of Lexapro, and 5 mg Lorazepam as needed. I hardly ever take the Lorazepam.
I have a pretty mild case of BP, mostly depressive episodes, but sometimes I get so restless and dissatisfied with everything. I have a wonderful partner and two beautiful children. I have a great job and loving family. I am so blessed. But....some days I get so fed up with the daily routine and all the mundane chores and obligations I have. In the past this has led to outrageous spending sprees. I got into a lot of debt when I was married but then divorced and most of it was taken care of then.
I know I'm in a phase and this will pass, but some days I dread the routine so much...my drive to work, doing the dishes, waking up and getting ready in the morning - it all seems to take so much energy out of me. I hate feeling this way.
I'm also going through a lot of social anxiety. I think having a good social network would help, but with kids and full-time jobs it's hard to build that.
Do you ever have periods of dissatisfaction like this?

You're bipolar case sounds like me. I don't have too much trouble with the mania, other than over-committing myself, restlessness, racing thoughts, etc. My biggest problem is with depression. I've been on a number of medications, but I am currently taking a break to allow for my GI tract problems to (hopefully) clear up. Depakote and Zyprexa did a number on me these last few months. It's only been 6 days without meds, but that's the longest I've gone in 6 years. I hope you begin to feel more even real soon.
Jenny
Hi ting, Gigi here.
Sometimes when I find myself getting into a rut or a routine that starts getting on my nerves, I do something to break out of it. I wouldn't neglect any of my important chores. I know you have the responsibility of taking care of your children, is it possible that you and your partner can switch with the other home activities of your home?
I don't mean to be intrusive, just a suggestion. I know that overspending is one of my triggers and when I start doing it, then I stop and look at what's underneath of that. Maybe you can sit down with your partner and talk it out with them. If they are understanding and caring then they will be open to what's going on with you.
Please take care and thanks for opening up.
Hugs,
Gigi
Hugs,
Sebastian
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((((((((((((((((((((((((Ting)))))))))))))))))))))))) It's been a long time my friend. I understand what you're going through and yes, it does get better. The docs finally got my meds straight, so I know if that can happen anything can;) I relate to the mundane day-in-day-out stuff. My laundry is proof of that. I just can't bring myself to actually bite the bullet and do it, meanwhile it just keeps piling up. At least one of my 3 kids does her own which is a help, but that still leaves me, my 2 other kids and towels and sheets. It takes a lot out of us when we get into the throws of an episode. Hang in there sweetie and keep us posted on how you're doing.
Hugs,
Traci
Thanks, Jenny, for your words. I know there are all different levels and experiences with bipolar. My therapist told me yesterday that what I'm experiencing now is definitely related to it. Hopefully better days are ahead for us!
Hugs
Thank you, Gigi. It's good to see you! I'm honest and open about my spending with my partner; I wasn't with my XH when we were married. She keeps me in check. Just this morning I told her I was totally bored with my wardrobe and she said "Unless you're coming into some money that I don't know about, you'll have to live with what you've got!" LOL That's what I need.
I will have to talk to her about spreading some of the household chores around. I tend to take over because I'm kind of obsessive-compulsive about it but know that I would be a lot less stressed if I let her do some things too. She's perfectly willing.
Thanks so much for your kind thoughts.
Hugs
Thank you, Traci. It's so great to see you again. It has been a while, hasn't it? One thing I need to do is find a hobby and stay busy with something that will get me out of my rut. I start things but then don't follow through. I'm completely different at work, but in my personal life, I just can't get it together sometimes.
It helps to know that I'm not alone!
Big hugs
Your welcome, Ting. I'm just respecting your privacy. It's good to see you here, too!
I come here to "dump" all of the things I'm stressed out about and it feels great to do so.
But, I'm happy that you do have a good partner that can "let you see the light" lol!
Hugs,
Gigi.
Hugs,
Sebastian
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