going inpatient ?

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Registered: 09-15-2004
going inpatient ?
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Tue, 05-08-2007 - 12:32pm
Does being inpatient actually help anyone for the long term? I notice that quite a few people of all ages go inpatient over and over (including me) and STILL end up back inpatient at some point. So is it working and if it is why do we end up back in the hospital? By the time I was 18 I had already been in four different hospitals (two for more than six weeks at a time) and it only got worse as I got older. I remember when I was 13 they wanted me to go long term residential (they were talking a minimal 18 months inpatient) but my parents couldn't afford it and insurance just laughed at us. And so I have been inpatient 14 times in my life and never gotten A THING out of it that I can see. I HATE being inpatient. It does absolutely NOTHING for me at all. Five minutes after I get in I am ready to sign myself out. So why doesn't it work? I guess it could be my lousy attitude but I only developed this cynicism over inpatient in the last two years. I was always hopeful it would help before then and tried to go in with a good attitude. But my social anxiety is so severe I can't (and I do mean CAN'T) participate in group sessions or do activities. I hid in my room no matter how much I wanted to come out. I couldn't even eat for three days because they wouldn't let me eat in my room. I think the last time they let me go home because they were afraid I was going to starve to death. I now REFUSE to go inpatient until they threaten me with a court order which I've already been through once. I'll even fib to my pdoc to avoid it. So if inpatient doesn't work or only works for the short term what else is left? If it doesn't work that well what else can a person try? Should I just give up then??
Sorry! I'm REALLY grumpy and long winded (and emotional and fat and bloated and too blasted PG) today! Feel free to ignore my pathetic whining. I am tempted to try some of those old wives tales to finally try to get labor started! I'm just soooo tired...
Jodie

Jodie

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Registered: 03-25-2003
Tue, 05-08-2007 - 9:01pm

Hey Jodi!!!

First of all...HUGS!!

Now, as for inpatient. I've been in 8 times the last 5 years...would I go again? Only if I were seriously suicidal. Otherwise, no. Its the SAME THING every time you go...you see some of the same people going in and out the same as you.

However, I think that people who aren't stabilized on meds and have never been inpatient, it would be really quite beneficial.

You hang in there. If you need anything, you can email me...even if you just wanna pass some time.

Love and Hugs,

Keli

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Registered: 09-01-2004
Tue, 05-08-2007 - 11:52pm

Jodie,


I absolutely HATE going i/p, but I've never regretted going, even to the one that was kind of a dud--it still helped.