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| Tue, 05-08-2007 - 3:42pm |
Okay, this sounds like an absolutely ridiculous question to me but I am going to ask it anyway.
How do you know what stable feels like when you haven't been "stable" for years and years??
I have been on 25mg of Lamictal for a week and I know not to expect to notice anything for maybe a few weeks. Will I actually feel different or will I slowly realize that
"hey, I haven't been depressed at all this week"?
Steph

Hi Steph...when I went on Lamictal, it was at the same time going off antidepressants, and Ativan. Cold Turkey...ugh! I was so freaking sick and miserable emotionally that when I hit my 3rd week (up to 50 mgs) it felt like i was human again. Now, that could very well be that I was through the withdrawals, but the depression had abated to some degree. I'm now on 150 mgs, along with 450 mgs of extended release Lithium, and while I'm not 100% cured, I am one million billion times better.
Yeah, the Lithium caused a 40 pound weight gain. I hate that I have to eat with it. I hate that it slows my metabolism down. But I will NEVER stop taking it. I won't ever go through the last 5 years of my life again.
What does stable feel like for me?
It feels like I'm "normal" again. Like I fit in with everyone else around me.
The hard part is that sometimes a mood is just a mood. I usually freak about the smallest bit of depression...the smallest bit of hypomania. But, they are simply moods. Once I learned (learn) to stop questioning my moods, it was a breeze.
Hugs,
Keli
Steph,
For me it's always been kind of a slow realization, that hey I'm not depressed and I'm actually sleeping.