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Tue, 05-08-2007 - 4:37pm

Let me start from the beginning....


I've been taking meds for depression/anxiety since 2002 when our daughter passed away. But even before that I knew that honestly I've never been a happy person, and I probably never will be. I just figured this is who I am. I never even thought about it being anything more than depression/anxiety.


Since 2002, I've taken Zoloft(same as taking placebo for me), Effexor(this laded me right in the bed, worse depression I've EVER had), Wellbutrin(and it worked okay for the depression part, took it for almost 4 years). And for anxiety, I took Klonopin, hydroxizine, and ativan.


I had a baby in November, and went off the meds in Feb, thinking I'M CURED! I don't need meds! Well, wrong... as usual. So I seen my doctor last week and we were talking and he said that he was pretty sure we've been treating the wrong thing the whole time, it's not dperession/anxiety but bipolar disorder.


So I started seroquel. 50mgs twice a day for 2 days then on to 100mgs twice a day. The bedtime one isn't so bad, since I needed sleep anyways. I'd rather do anything that sleep (don't I sound like my 2year old). But that daily dose kicks my butt!! I have to plan it around the kids nap time. I'm not sure if it's working yet or not, but it doesn't make me feel hung-over in the morning, like some of you mentioned. I usually feel okay.


Anyhoo, thanks for listening!! I hope to learn a lot from you about bpd, since it's new to me. I forgot to say that my husband kind of thinks the dx is a crock and that I use it to my ability. I seriously don't and am doing the best that I can, with everything. Any suggestions? Thanks!!!

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Registered: 10-10-2006
In reply to: katrinaadams
Tue, 05-08-2007 - 5:04pm
Katrina, Your symptoms sound like mine. I was treated for MANY years for depression and only recently was diagnosed BP II. To help your DH understand you can take him to your tdoc appt and have him/her explain what is going on and what to expect. Also I found a wonderful website that is what convinced me I was actually bipolar and not just depressed. By the way both DH and DS are bipolar also so I have dealt with it for some time.
The site if you are interested is http://www.psycheducation.org/index.html You might even be able to get your DH to read it and it will show him what is going on.
Good Luck and keep coming back to lurk, post, vent, ask questions whatever you feel like.
Brenda
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Registered: 09-01-2004
In reply to: katrinaadams
Wed, 05-09-2007 - 12:29am

Katrina,


Welcome to the board, I'm glad you found us!


Being initially dx'd with "just" depression, even for years, is VERY common, unfortunately.