it just couldn't last :/ *trigger?*

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it just couldn't last :/ *trigger?*
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Thu, 05-10-2007 - 4:38am
The past couple of days were so great....I actually felt pretty "normal" for the first time in a long time, not depressed and not too wired....actually having a normal sleep schedule. I posted earlier about possibly having bipolar or symptoms of it. I was actually thinking that maybe I didn't even need to go to the doctor and was over reacting. And then...tonight....I knew it...I started just feeling "bad" and had the usual stomach and chest pains and then the crying for no reason...I still feel horrible as I'm writing this, but I'm trying desperately to not focus on these feelings I'm having...I want to just go to sleep, but I know if I lay down and do nothing they'll overcome me and I might hurt myself...a little...on top of the feelings I'm having, I feel so upset at myself for feeling this way because I know I shouldn't be!


Edited 5/10/2007 4:40 am ET by dyingtolive
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Thu, 05-10-2007 - 6:51am
SO sorry its a bad night :( I so understand all your feelings (I know we all do) I feel like you do that the Dr isnt needed but this time I know for sure I need it I'm not 'crazy' for being this way it happens & I am learning to cope with it it is hard but those good days I like them so I want more. Please dont hurt yourself if it gets bad please go & get help PLEASE .... I hope your feeling better when u see this & nothing 'bad' has happened.

 

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Registered: 10-19-2006
Fri, 05-11-2007 - 10:48am
Get help now,
You sound depressed and and like your having aniety attacks.
You need to see someone it only gets worse if you don't get help.
Things will change it takes time.
You have to work trough the ups and downs .
The meds and therepy do help.
.Do not be scared just go for it.
good luck.

Sparkleeyes..........

Live life well & Always look ahead.

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Registered: 09-01-2004
Fri, 05-11-2007 - 9:35pm

That great feeling is one of the reason's BP folks rarely seek help when they're manic.

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Registered: 11-18-2003
Sat, 05-12-2007 - 9:02am

(((((((((((Hugs))))))))) First of all, you are worth living! Everyone has their down moments with this disorder. The important thing is not to act on those feelings. We've all done things that we've regreted later. I'm a classic example. Kudo's to you for not giving in to just going to sleep. But at the same time, don't deprive your body of sleep. In other words, get your sleep at night when it's bed time. If you aren't seeing a pdoc or a tdoc right now, you might want to see one. If you are experiencing signs and symptoms of a mood disorder, be it bipolar or any other mood disorder it's important to get proper professional help. The chest pain symptoms could be anxiety attacks which cover so many mood disorders, but the weird stuff/depressed feelings sound like bipolar. I can't make the diagnosis here and chances are pretty good that a regular doctor can't either. But he/she can refer you to a pdoc. So hang in there and come back here to post, especially if you feel like hurting yourself. Venting can be very therapeutic and we're here to support you.


Hugs,
Traci