i've stopped(triggers)
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i've stopped(triggers)
| Fri, 05-25-2007 - 1:50pm |
i don't know what i've stopped doing...holding it together or for the most part stopped treatment.
stopped unloading the dishwasher..hahaha.that must drive the household mad.
i do laundry but don't fold it.
mostly what i do is cry & intermittently go stark raving mad.
i did manage to get out & buy cigs cause what the heck is the dif if i smoke?
i cancelled my t appt on sunday b/c there is no point.
i think i REALLY think its the treatment that's landed me in this better be dead situation.
the side effects are UNBEARABLE.
3 months of jenny craig(that's over 1500$)& i gain another 5 pounds.finally i had to fess up to the meds.at the rate i'm going i'll be starving & 300 pounds thru no fault of my own.
the inability to be in my skin or be touched by anyone...whatta way to live.
sweating...like a freak would
THIS med to counter THAT med & another med to counter those.
i'll still take my lithium & ativan but the anti depressants & antipsychotics?they are toxic.
so now i am depressed & i am psychotic.any chore is a chore too much.my kids are scared to death of me & my dog won't come near me even if i'm holding a steak.
this is what i've done to my life.
i should've left it alone & simply been "quirky"
now i am in hell instead.
stupid %^&$* meds...made by "well" people who don't know what the hell they are doing in the long run.
DID YOU KNOW that even the famous prozac that docs used to prescribe for weight loss is NOW discovered to cause weight gain with prolonged use?
i'm tired of people staring at me..asking what HAPPENED to me?
my pdoc (again..we've been over this)said the only drug that won't make me fat on 400 cals a day is wellbutrin...i told her i cannot take wellbutrin b/c the 2 times i did i had grand mal seizures..fortunately no one was hurt but it put my life on hold for 2 years each time..........pdoc asked.."are you SURE?"
AM I WHAT!?
stopped unloading the dishwasher..hahaha.that must drive the household mad.
i do laundry but don't fold it.
mostly what i do is cry & intermittently go stark raving mad.
i did manage to get out & buy cigs cause what the heck is the dif if i smoke?
i cancelled my t appt on sunday b/c there is no point.
i think i REALLY think its the treatment that's landed me in this better be dead situation.
the side effects are UNBEARABLE.
3 months of jenny craig(that's over 1500$)& i gain another 5 pounds.finally i had to fess up to the meds.at the rate i'm going i'll be starving & 300 pounds thru no fault of my own.
the inability to be in my skin or be touched by anyone...whatta way to live.
sweating...like a freak would
THIS med to counter THAT med & another med to counter those.
i'll still take my lithium & ativan but the anti depressants & antipsychotics?they are toxic.
so now i am depressed & i am psychotic.any chore is a chore too much.my kids are scared to death of me & my dog won't come near me even if i'm holding a steak.
this is what i've done to my life.
i should've left it alone & simply been "quirky"
now i am in hell instead.
stupid %^&$* meds...made by "well" people who don't know what the hell they are doing in the long run.
DID YOU KNOW that even the famous prozac that docs used to prescribe for weight loss is NOW discovered to cause weight gain with prolonged use?
i'm tired of people staring at me..asking what HAPPENED to me?
my pdoc (again..we've been over this)said the only drug that won't make me fat on 400 cals a day is wellbutrin...i told her i cannot take wellbutrin b/c the 2 times i did i had grand mal seizures..fortunately no one was hurt but it put my life on hold for 2 years each time..........pdoc asked.."are you SURE?"
AM I WHAT!?

Suzi,
Please call back and reschedule your tdoc appointment--now is definitely not the time to be skipping it!
Honey, I know what the med-go-round can do yo you and I sympathize, but I truly believe that as bad as it can be, going without is worse.
hey there...just wanted to say hello and i miss you...email me if you want,k?