don't wanna take my meds anymore (Vent)
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| Fri, 07-06-2007 - 6:45pm |
I'm so freaking sick and tired of taking these darn meds. I take two 200mg pills of Lamictal - those of you on lamictal know what a pain in the arse it is to swallow and the taste is awful when you don't get it down the first time. I'm also taking Risperdal. That's not so bad, but I seem to have a difficult time remembering to take them every day and am more of an every other day person. So far that's actually been OK for me but if I miss two days I turn into a wreck for about 3 days until I get back on track.
I just don't want to do it anymore, and the idea of having to take pills every day for the rest of my life is really pissing me off right now. I know, I know, there are hundreds if not millions of people that have to take meds every day and I should stop feeling sorry for myself but I just wanna whine about it right now and be a little brat. I just am sick of taking these stupid meds and constantly being asked by the pdoc and tdoc if they're working so they can try to push yet another pill down my throat. I'm supposed to be taking lexapro also but never filled the prescription. Just can't stand the thought of taking another pill. OK I'm being a big brat, but I hate it, hate it, hate it!!!

OMG, do I know how you feel. I HATE MEDS TOO !!!! I used to take 600mgs of Lamictal, 600mgs Lithium, Welbutrin, Prozac, and xanax. I felt like a big pill popper. I would look at those bottles and think all that crap is going in me everyday and looking at all the pill for the month thinking of taking all them was overwhelming. I hated that I have an illness that requires me to take these pills all the time. So, for awhile I stopped all meds. Boy was that a BIG mistake. I did it slowly but it still was not a good idea. So, I went back on my prozac and Lithium. I do NOT recommend going off ANY meds unless told to do so by your pdoc. I am now getting back on track and feeling better. As much as I HATE HATE HATE taking meds... I must do it. I have a better functioning life taking all those pills than not. Yes, I do know how bad those Lamictal are when you don't get them down. I have also had a 40 mg capsule of prozac burst in my throat and it burnt and was the worst tasting. You are right it is no fun taking meds for any reason on a daily basis.
I take my bipolar meds, blood pressure med, and meds for lupus symptoms, birth control pills, mulit-vitamin, B-12 sublingual pill and a Vitamin D pill. They add up and I feel like that is all I do is take pills. Sometimes I feel like I take more pills than I eat...lol
I know it sucks but keep taking the meds and enjoy everyday the best you can.
Hugs,
Tina
~ Tina ~
I also know exactly how you feel. Then, I always had the expense of the darn things as a weight on my shoulders, too.
My attitude about meds changed after the millionth time that I quit taking them because I was feeling this way, as we with Bipolar are want to do. I finally, finally figured out that I was equating "happiness" with what I felt when I was hypomanic. When I finally figured out that that wasn't really "happy," it made the pill taking easier for me.
As for the taste and your trouble with pills, the Lamictal also comes in chewable tabs and liquid forms. Risperdal comes in a liquid form. Perhaps this would make it easier for you.
I am unable ot give legal or medical advice. My opinions are based on my experiences and my personal research.
I'm right there with ya on this one and to the other poster that mentioned the cost....GOOD LORD, I have a decent med plan with my insurance and the med bills STILL kill us. DW takes 8 or so, DS takes 4, DD takes 4, I take 3.....when they all need to be rifilled at the same time....OUCH!!!!
tk
Hello there, I can understand how you feel. But think of the alternatives: The return of your sypmtoms, constant returns to the hospital, your life being disrupted, and losing everyone and everything in your life, that you've worked hard at getting back.
This is for me and me alone: I chose to go off of my meds, cold turkey. That wasn't the brightest thing to do, but I got sick of the medication also. The constant reminder to take them as prescribed, and the after effects: The sleepiness, the weight gain, and having to go and fill the prescription, etc.
I used to dislike the taste of the meds also. My pdoc used to switch me around and when she used to do that, I flatly refused to take the meds because she couldn't make up her mind. She would up my dose, until what worked for me worked, and she kept it at that dosage. In the beginning of my depression (before I was diagnosed Bipolar)I took Prozac. I had to be taken off of it, because it made my mania worse.
I was then put on Depakote, but that made me sleepy and I gained a lot of weight, because it affected my appitite(sp). And as a result of eating a lot of food, and sleeping afterwards, I crossed over that invisible line of not having diabetes to getting Type 2 diabetes. But that's what happened to me, it may not happen to you.
So, just think of the alternatives of not taking your meds. You do have a right to tell your doctor to stop switching your meds around so often, after all it is your body that is responding to the meds that's going into your body, it's not his or hers.
Thanks,
Sebastian
Hugs,
Sebastian
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I'm feeling better on the meds but always feel like I'm on the verge of a nervous breakdown, I just want to take a break from life for a while and chill, alone. No kids, no husband, just me and the beach or something. It would be so nice (I know everyone dreams of that). I guess I just have to realize that now that I'm not hypomanic that life doesn't always have to be on. I can relax and just be normal. Clean my house, and take care of my kids and not be so wild. It's taking some getting used to for me (might also be part of the reason why I want to ditch the meds) I don't know this person that I"m becoming, but I think it'll be OK>
I am SO with you!!!!!!
Hello Tina:
I just came across this message board. I've been in touch with the Anti-depressant and the alcohol boards; but this one message you posted hit home a bit more.
O.K. I have been prescribed BP meds, cholesteral meds, Lexapro and a sleep aid. And, I just can't seem to take them on a regular basis. 1st it seems that they all make me feel blah and I have 5 kiddos (so I have to be alert and active). On top of everything I feel I have a drinking problem and later on the day my face is red knowing that my BP must be out of wack.
Perhaps you can shed some light on when you started to feel "normal" after taking your meds. When do you not feel so blah and get some energy back?
If you could let me know; it would help a bunch.
Kelley