hedumped me because of my bipolar
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hedumped me because of my bipolar
| Fri, 08-10-2007 - 4:50am |
After 5 wonderful years w/ the greatest guy, he pulled the plug on our relationship saying he could no longer deal w/ my bipolar. Talk about the shock of a life time- he was with me when I was diagnosed & through all the medicine changes, & I am more stable now than I have ever been. I have been pushing him for a commitment because I want more out of our relationship than to be just his girlfriend, & now he hits me with "I don't know how many rebounds I have in me from your "episodes" "...
I am absolutely devastated- & feel so down right now... I have been doing the best I have ever been & don't cycle hardly ever anymore. The doc recently put me on an antidepressant (Effexor XR) along w/ my lithium & it has really stabilized me even more...
Part of me feels like this is just his excuse for not wanting to commit. Part of me feels like it is my fault for being bipolar & because things havent always been as smooth as they can be... How do you cope with bipolar when everyone who knows makes you feel like an outcast, or like you are not good enough to work through it?
I am also raising a bipolar child, my son... that has been a big challenge as well... do you ever feel so overwhelmed?
I am absolutely devastated- & feel so down right now... I have been doing the best I have ever been & don't cycle hardly ever anymore. The doc recently put me on an antidepressant (Effexor XR) along w/ my lithium & it has really stabilized me even more...
Part of me feels like this is just his excuse for not wanting to commit. Part of me feels like it is my fault for being bipolar & because things havent always been as smooth as they can be... How do you cope with bipolar when everyone who knows makes you feel like an outcast, or like you are not good enough to work through it?
I am also raising a bipolar child, my son... that has been a big challenge as well... do you ever feel so overwhelmed?

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He obviously has issues of his own.
Keep your head up and don't let it get you down.
In the end everything will work out for the best .
Best of luck to you.
xoxoxo
Sparkleeyes..........
Live life well & Always look ahead.
Thank you for the open communication about what you are going through- I had a very hard time the last few weeks accepting that it was over... but I did very well at not cycling into the deep depression that I kept waiting to come...
Bipolar is one of the hardest challenges I have ever had to live with- but once I accepted that I could not change, only learn to live with and manage the symptoms, I got much stronger than I ever was...
He sent me an email a few days ago, wondering if he had made a mistake and if we should try to work things out. I read it, cried over it, and wrote back a response that shocked me, but it was heartfelt- I told him that I had learned to live with me, and love me for what and who I am, and I did not think he was ever going to reach that point- to be able to accept me and love me, and not punish me for what was out of my control. I also told him that I thought it was wise for us not to be together anymore, that I needed someone that I didn't have to wonder if the next cycle was going to end the relationship, and it takes a strong person to love someone with bipolar, and while he had many things I love about him, he cannot be that person for me.
Talk about a hard realization, but I am glad I have come to it....
Being bipolar does not make me unloveable... it makes me strong in many ways, and I am learning to rely on me...
Thank you so much for sharing- it is such a comfort to talk to others that go through the same challenges and difficulties- and find a way through them...
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