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| Wed, 11-28-2007 - 3:17pm |
When my doctor first told me I was bipolar I didn't believe it. That was over a year ago and finally I have come to realize that there is more than just Major Depression and Generalized Anziety Disorder....along with

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tavi welcome,
excuse me for being short have an appt with pdoc and dh is running late.I also worked at a school system. I had to resign broke my heart too love the kids.Anyway yes the rage and overspending IMHO sounds like BP> It takes along time to find the right cocktail(or strings of meds) so dont let tant get you down. On this board we all go through ups and downs you can say anything on here we dont judge gotta run
ttyl
I'd rather be sailing
God determines who walks into your life...it's up to you to decide,who you let walk away,who you let stay,and who you refuse to let go
Hi Travi and welcome !!!
Having borderline personality disorder has some things in common with bipolar. I hope the new meds you are on help with both. I know borderline is more difficult to treat than bipolar so I do hope the meds can make positive changes for you.
This is a great group here and you will find support here.
~ Tina ~
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I have been lurking here lately, but saw your post and had to respond.
Travi,
Hi and I'm glad that you are writing. It is so good to be able to talk freely on this board. Yep it sure sounds like you belong here. When I found this board, only 2-3wks ago, I felt like I had finally come home, or found a home. A little about myself first. I am a mom of 3 children, dd28, ds23,ds13 and 2 beautiful grandchildren. I am on ssi for my disablity, p.t.s.d., depression, panic attacks, and most recently bipolar type 2. I have also been told by many a pdocs, and tdocs that I am borderline as well. But, according to my new pdoc, he says that the borderline dx'd was incorrect, and that it is actually bp2. Who knows I just hope this pdoc is right, and I will start to feel better soon. My psych. meds are Klonopin, Neurontin(another mood stablizer/anti-convulsant), Cymbalta(anti-depressant) and Lamictal, that is the generic name for the Lampigrine. I just started taking the Lamictal, and am only on the 25mg. than raise it up every 2wks. One week down one more to go. I also want to tell you that I am a recoving addict. I have almost 3yrs, clean. So for that I am a very grateful recoving addict. I too always wanted to drown away my guilt, and just hide from the world. Now I just deal with what comes my way. I would much rather be off of the drugs than on them. At least I feel. Because during the 3yrs of being off I have lost my mom, a lot of pain there, I tell you, and I have had some really awesome good moments. BTW, I am in no way suggesting that you are an addict, I was just telling you about me. I have moments actually quite a few of them where I hate myself as well, for something that I have done, or not done, or said, or for just who I am. But unlike you, I have a dh, and a ds at home and am extreamly lucky with that. Try to forgive yourself, because it is your mental illness, Travi, not you! I was also sexually abused by my father from the age of 6-19. So yeah life can be hard, but the moments that are good, hon, hang on to them and remember them when you feel the despair that you find yourself in. I don't get much of the mania, just mostly the depression. That's what bp2 is about. I have serious rage issues, and than the guilt of course that really kills me. I hate that I rage. But, I have the hope that my new pdoc, will be able to help me out. You take care of yourself, and remember, we are here for you, so your not alone.
Donna
Donna
Donna, this is off topic but I noticed you said you were SA'd when you were young I would like to invite you to another board here on iVillage it is the Sexual Abuse Healing board. Here is the link.
http://messageboards.ivillage.com/n/mb/listsf.asp?webtag=iv-bhsexabuse&nav=start
We have several people there that are also BP. If you aren't interested PLEASE disregard this post.
I hope I didn't offend you with this post. I am BP and have been SA'd so I thought you might want to check it out.
Brenda
Brenda,
No you didn't offend me at all, I went over to the board and posted a very cautious message. Thank you for telling me about it. Didn't even know it was there. I have only been on iVillage for 2wks. so don't really know how to navigate on here. Again thanks for the message board site. BTW I love what you have on your siggy. Expecially the "what lies within us" how true is that. I don't know how all of you do that. It took me awhile just to figure out the signing of my name. LOL. Anyway take care hope to talk with you again. I think the red is a bit to colorful, hurts my eyes. Just wanted to try it, last time for the red.
Donna
Donna
Travi
i KNOW how that feels i was honest at
Well, I cannot handle people talking behind my back and it drives me insane. If I email someone I haven't emailed in a while, they won't write back. It's so dishertening. It's like the word has got around - "stay around from her, she's crazy."
I could just lie down and go to sleep thinking of this. I do get mad at them and then rage which only makes me look more crazy but I can't take it anymore. Nobody wants to be my friend. ....except my students!
Travi
Travi
Travi,
I want to be your friend, you can e-mail me anytime you want. You can rant and rave, and rage all you want. I have btdt. So remember kiddo you are not alone. You do have at least one friend here. And I'm sure others can empathize. Write all you want to me Travi, I am always home, and usually close to the computer.
Your Friend
Donna
Donna
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