No other words can really describe me right now.
Wow, that is a LOT of work/business! I hope in the near future you get to sleep and relax some. I don't think I could do all that...I'd be ready to say, I can't do anymore and to heck with it all!
Yesterday I cleaned our apartment ---like dusting, mopping, sweeping, etc b/c, well it needed it, but also b/c I thought I had a client coming over here to discuss birthday invitations. Nice--she never called, and never showed up. She got my number from my neighbor (it's her sister) and I just found out my neighbor is a good scam artist. So it might be a blessing in disguise.
Here is a good site to check out. Dr Shawn Talbott just wrote a book all about overcoming exhaustion and burnout. He's also appearing on a Dr. Oz episode next Wednesday, Dec 21st about secret reasons women may be exhausted.
Check out his most recent blog
It's pretty clear to this grandmother that you are wearing yourself out.
WF04 wrote:When you are chronically ill, you must reorganize your life and prioritize - put your needs first, not others.
Great advice. Unfortunately, as women, we are constantly told that everybody else's needs come before ours. And when you have bills to pay and children to feed and classes to attend, it's difficult to say, "I need to sleep..." There's always that "BUT". I need to rest, BUT.... then house needs cleaning. I need a day off, BUT... my students' education will suffer. I'm exhausted and in pain, BUT... it's probably just all in my head anyway.
I'm not sure yet if I actually have FM, but there's definitely something wrong with me and it's been snowballing, just like you said, because I haven't been taking care of myself.