Not feeling in control of our lives induces a lot of anger, which is normal. It makes us feel a lot of different feelings. We search and search for ways to make everything better, to make things right and we hit a dead end, and that can make anyone angry, scared, sad, hopeless, and many other feelings. You are feeling what is expected under the circumstances. Do not feel bad for your feelings.
I wish for you to take care of yourself. To take a deep breath. When does your dh see the doc next?
~ Tina ~