What's everyone been up to?

oo cruise.. that would be lovely

the other night my fella promised to take me thru the greek islands.. hehe when he wins the lotto ;)

yeah for sure deedle, but honestly cash is going to be a problem for a long time yet.. sigh

I've been on a couple of dates here, even signed up for an online dating site.. i kinda wanna test the strength of my feelings.. like do i truely love him or am i in love with being in love, is it him or just that he was around and giving me attention when i so desperately needed it, is it just habit now.. all those questions that can drive you crazy.. but i find that when men contact me, while I love the the attention and enjoy the adult conversation, noone really grabs me the way my scot does (and did from the very first moment we spoke).. lmao i usually end up talking to these men about him lol.. shrug go figure

so its all about getting ourselves sorted financially, emotionally, etc and supporting each other from afar until someone waves a magic wand and our situations get easier.. well for me that will be next year when my kids both start primary school and I am able to work.. assuming nothing changes till then i figure it will take about 6 months to get the debts out of the way and save up for the trip.. but hell we've waited more than 2 years already.. whats one more when i feel in the depths of my soul that this guy is the one meant for me?

its crazy and weird, but ever since we first spoke i've felt like i've known him my entire life.. or at least that i've known he was there somewhere.. almost like everything else prior to this was just practise for when he finally arrived.. ugh thats a poor description i know.. but it is something so deep leavel gut feeling.. like my soul knew him before i did.. haha if i was into the past life thing i would say we'd spent many lives together heheh