Married, stable, 30's, aborted

Sometimes I wish I could say I was a teenager w/my whole life ahead of me. I wish I could say that my significant other was crap, or we're not together. I can't say any of that. I am in my mid-30's, happily married, stable, and have two wonderful little children. I aborted w/the pill 3 weeks ago. My husband did not want to keep it because he said of financial reasons, the stress, the commitment, he had his reasons and I do understand them. We have never planned for a third, it was never in our equation. The thing that bothers me the most is that if the decision was 100% mine I would have kept it. Sure, it may have been a struggle, a financial burden, unfair to my other two children, but I would have done it. I do see now that was can provide FULLY for the two children that we do have, but my biggest emotion right now is sadness. I am not having nightmares, and overall I can function. I went to Planned Parenthood and they were great and so nice, no