He's not in contact like I asked... why does it hurt so bad?
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|Wed, 04-11-2012 - 5:59pm|
A few weeks ago when I said the affair had to stop, I told him it had to be a full break, no contact anymore, ever. And I was serious, but of course I got nosy and looked him back up on FB and somehow I friend requested him by accident - seriously... now it lets you friend people in the search dropdown if they are listed with just one click on the right of their name. I think I clicked it because I certainly did not want to re-friend him. Anyway, he accepted and I felt dumb so I just sent him a brief message wishing him and his family well. He replied and said he was happy to hear from me and hated this, and asked if I'd be up for him giving me a freelance assignment related to his company's website relaunch. I need the extra $ so I said yes - and his boss ended up taking over the assignment. My xap seemed pissed he couldn't handle the contact with me, and that he "messed this one up as well."
I said I guess nothing is simple when the two of us are involved and that I'd get in touch with his boss but that because I wasn't feeling well (I have a chronic health problem that flares up, especially when I am under stress) so not sure if I'd take it. He never responded in any way. That was over a week ago. It's setting in now that he's probably doing what I asked and stopping all contact, but it feels like crap. Part of me thought that if he really cared for me, he'd check in by now. What a fool I am. This is tearing me apart and I miss him so bad. I feel physically and emotionally sick. When does this start to get easier? I feel like I've lost my mind! I'm a smart woman with a husband who loves me, friends, a good job and so much going for me... why am I letting him turn me nutso?