update on non-responsive AP
Find a Conversation
|Fri, 09-28-2012 - 9:28am|
Thank you everyone for all of the advice and support! You are all so strong and kind and it's great to have this board
Sent AP a one-line, sort of just checking in e-mail two nights ago, and no response. Now I know for certain he's playing games and trying to use silence to manipulate me. Today I woke up with a sense of courage, that it is okay now to confront him and tell him how this treatment is unacceptable. I will wait until Monday (unless he contacts me before then, which I doubt)...just because I know it will be easier to get a hold of him on a weekday, and I hope I can keep my courage until then! I also want two days to just breathe and collect my thoughts and make sure I come across as level-headed. This sounds strange, but if he wants to dump me, I want HIM to do it. I will not let him piss me off so that I dump him, because I know that would be what he wants and I would be giving into his emotional manipulation. I know that sounds weird, but he needs to come out and say the truth, whatever that is.
I think my biggest issue is having an angry husband has made me so afraid of men...it's time for me to call the shots. After all this time, if I've been dumped, or if he needs space or who knows what the hell, it's time for him to own up and tell me.
Definitely trying to stay very busy...weird though, b/c I am a pretty booked person and still think wayyy too much about AP, so that sucks Just got a 2nd job though, maybe that will help, but I still am having trouble focusing sometimes, am going to try to get better at it by just breathing and taking things an hour at a time.
I guess it all comes down to this...what I'm most mad about is that I'm being disrespected, and no matter how busy I am, that's a hard thing to get over, because nobody deserves that.
Hoping I don't lose my courage on Monday!