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|Sat, 09-29-2012 - 3:11am|
I've never done this before and have no idea how this works. But I feel so alone.
I am diagnosed with Bi-Polar Disorder, Borderline Personality Disorder and Anxiety. I've been a self-harmer for 6 years but have been working hard to change that. Suicide attempts too.
I was raped this past April.
I don't remember much of what happened, but I do know that it hurt. I was a virgin. (20 years old and was trying to save myself...)
He left me in a parking lot at in the morning. To this day, I don't know where my shirt went.
He texted me 3 weeks later saying he had my belt, but wouldn't tell me his name. I don't know how he got my number.
I have gone on with my life (or so it seems) but on the inside, I feel the most alone I have ever felt in my entire life. Nights are particularly hard on me. Suicide continues to cross my mind.
Who will ever want me now? Who will ever love me?