Find a Conversation
|Sun, 09-30-2012 - 9:04am|
Hello everyone! This is my first time posting. I am 34 and finally 7w2d pregnant after my third IVF. I always thought when I got to this point, I would be elated and joyful all the time. Well, it is not exactly what I had hoped and I have become a total basketcase. Everything was fine until 6w3d (this past Monday) and the date of my scheduled "heartbeat" US. That morning, I got up from a chair at work and felt a really strong cramp which knocked me back into the chair. It passed but I thought it was strange so I went to the bathroom. Bright red blood...lots of it. I know Jaime posted a similar story not too long ago. It was terrifying and I was sure the worst had happened. My RE had me come down right away and, to my utter disbelief, there was a happy little fetal pole measuring 5mm and a HB of 117. I spotted small amounts of brown until Thursday and then it stopped. I thought I was out of the woods.
Right...I should have known better. Yesterday AM, I was having breakfast out with DH and went to the bathroom. About half the panty liner I was wearing had red blood on it. No cramping this time. To my credit, I did not panic (but was nervous as hell!!!). I called the RE's office calmly. The doc happened to be there (on a Saturday!) and told me to come right over. The doc said everything looked fine but after measuring the little bean, instead of telling me the measurement, just said there was a margin of error....what? I saw the measurement and it was 8mm at 7w1d. The heartbeat was really good at 140 and they did find a small subchorionic hematoma. So, here I am, completely stressed about it only growing 3mm in 5 days even with a good heartbeat. I vow to myself I will not google anymore and then find my hands drawn to the keyboard less than 10 minutes later. I have had small brown spotting since then and the occasional mild twinge which of course leads to a frantic pull down of the pants...no matter where I happen to be. My next US is Tuesday.
I know that bleeding is common in IVF pregnancies and my logical brain tells me to listen to the doc that everything is fine. But my emotional infertile brain is screaming all the time. Is there anyway to shut it up? Has anyone found any ways to stay calm in the first trimester after IVF? THANK YOU!!!!