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|Mon, 10-01-2012 - 6:45pm|
Okay, maybe too dramatic. Here's what happened. Xap and I met through my work several years ago. He did some contract work with us and I am the keeper of that information. It has sat for years in an electronic file. I never refer to it. Well, an international organization wants to use that material but, bureaucracies being what they are, there's paperwork that has to go with that. Unfortunately, I never had the original paperwork. So today's solution is for me to go back to him and get him to sign a waiver.
I have spent the day avoiding that approach. I finally asked my assistant to do it. Now I really should review that request before it goes out but I don't want to have anything to do with it. I've even said I don't need to be cc'd on it. I think that's all that's going to come from this but it has messed up my head. Because I haven't seen that email, I don't know if my assistant has mentioned me. I don't know if it wasn't worded well enough to prompt my xap to sign. There are so many unknowns and I don't like it.
The worst unknown is that I haven't been avoiding this because I don't want to break NC. I've been avoiding it because I had a thought early on today that this would be a legitimate excuse to break NC. And that treacherous thought was so depressing. I thought I'd run far enough but apparently not. Those thoughts are still there.
I've got a thousand things to do so I'm dashing out the door. I'll be back to scream into a pillow later.