So frustrated

I went to my 38 wk appt. today and the first thing the dr. said when he came in was "are we to one week appointments already?!"  Ummm, hellllooo, I 've been on them for 2 wks already and I only have 2 wks left!  Grr... thats when I knew it wasn't going to be the best appt. ever.

He said he'd strip my membranes and that it would probably hurt and I would get crampy and maybe even spot afterwards and probably get more contractions.  Nope.  None of that.  It was slightly uncomfortable but nothing major like I've had with other pregnancies.  I'm almost wondering if he didn't do that great of a job on purpose.  He likes babys to stay in until the due date or even after (up to 2 wks).  He knows I want to be induced early because of conflicts in my school schedule and the fact that I have 6 other kids to find care for.  We've talked about it every week for the last month.

When we started talking about induction day he said we could do it on the 13th since he was on call anyway but then he said he had one other induction already that day so he didn't know if he could fit me in.  He will let me know if he can't (and he sounded like thats what would happen).  I get this suspicion that he's trying to make me go the full time.

I'm sooooooo bugged.  I was only a fingertip dilated and not effaced at all which didn't help matters.  I'm kind of freaking out right now.  I have midterms the week I'm due, a project due the following week and have to be at a 2 week long lab class 2 wks after my due date.  I need every day, every minute of recovery time I can get.  Why oh why is this the ONE time that I actually WANT/NEED to be induced and I have a dr. who's being a jerk about it?  My dr.'s in the past have always pushed it and seemed surprised that I didn't want to do it.

AAARRRRRRGHGGGHHHHH!  Frustrated!