Went to a concert tonite by myself. There were so many songs that reminded me of myXAP. I drove home after the show. I cried all the way home. I know that I should be over this BS with him. I just felt so sad and alone. I still can't believe that I can't get over this especially because he cheated on me with this girl I work with. He is still seeing her. I have the need to tell her he is a player before he ruins her life- this girl is engaged to this guy who is so nice and has 2 kids from his previous marriage. She should wake up before she loses everything for nothing. I still can't believe he played me so bad. I was a fool . Why am I still crying over him??? I'm just hurting so deep today. I need to be here for support. I can't get thru this with out you guys.
Even when we know in our heads that XAP is no good somehow our stupid feelings can't catch up. It makes me feel like I am some kind of total idiot/freak of nature but when I come to these boards I see that it's a human trait that many people feel too. I don't know how long it takes, longer than 5 months for me. Thinking of you
Don't contact that woman. Don't. It will make you l
Don't contact that woman. It will make you appear what your name says. SHE is not your problem. You really don't care about her, her kids ... you're just mad at him. I get it. Please work towards you as a focus. I know, we all know how hard it is.
Do you have a therapist? Can you seek other employment? Take control, make a plan, you'll feel your esteem grow enough to see some light.
Disconnect from the A. Ignore talk of him, her, delete them. This is about you now.
So tell us what you'll do!
Best wishes
Gypsy.
C-G
I am sorry you feel so sad today. It has to be really hard to see this all going on right in front of you...all the time.
Now I know you have a real itch to tell this woman, to save her from herself, but more often than not, when we really dig deep it is for revenge on him...for being dumped and rejected. Like I have said to you many times and others have as well, do not do it. She needs to learn her own lesson, and you will only interfere with that. It's not your place. His business is no longer your business. You could find yourself in real hot water if you spill his beans.
I'm glad you are here for support. This Board works best by coming here daily and participating, dialoguing with others, supporting others in their struggle. There's a saying in AA "We keep it by giving it away"...when we support others, we strength our own resolve as a result. Even if you think that, as a newbie, you aren't strong enough or where you think you should be by now, you have much to offer...even if you assure someone that you are listening or can relate. And reading is a big help towards recovery as well. Have you read some of the threads in the Healing Library? They, too, will fortify you and strengthen your resolve and give you some guidance and comfort.
Have you considered counseling? A professional can help you delve into your core issues that are beyond our scope..and help guide and support you.
((hugs))
Clarity
I got home last nite and couldn't sleep. I was up till 3am-thinking and crying. Then this morning, I had a clearer thinking. He really is a piece of garbage. I just don't know how I can work with him everyday. Its so complicated. I just have to focus on me. I am looking to see a therapist. I already went to the Dr. for anti-depressants and tranquilizer. That is just so sad.
Is your resume in order? Can you look for new employment?
I'm N, no kids. The whole M thing is another whole story. Not good. Unfixable. I working on my resume but there are no jobs out there. But I have to keep looking. My whole life is a complete mess. This year Ive had so much tragedy and drama. Can't believe I'm surviving it.
Yo Soy EL Capitan de Mi Vida