Husband watches porn and I found out by spying his email.. REGRET IT
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|Thu, 10-11-2012 - 1:52pm|
I am losing my mind. I need some help because I really don't know what to do. I should have never found my husbands passwords to his email. I can't sleep and I'm sick every day thinking about what I found.
He spends between $300 - $500 a month downloading video clips. Most are foot fetish, girls getting hypnotized and girls masterbating. I had no idea that he was doing this and I can't even tell him that I know because I learned his password in the computer and should have never snooped. I don't see the bills (they are in his name) so I can't say I saw it.
The big issue with me is that our sex life isn't so great. For the past couple of years, he has a problem having sex because he loses his erection. Now I know why.. Because he is excessively masterbating to these video clips. He uses a pill now to help keep it up and he also has another issue during sex because he doesn't ejaculate.. And, now I know why. I thought it was me. I had asked him before if he masterbates too much since that may cause his sex issues and he said that he doesn't.
I can't stop checking his emails ever since I found out. Every day when he orders a clip, I see what he ordered. I'm not sure how to go about talking to him because he will ask me how I know. I can't tell him I have his password.
This is literally killing me. I know I did bad by snooping. What should I do? Help?