18 Month - Just checking in
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|Thu, 10-11-2012 - 6:14pm|
So, here I am, 18 months of NC. Who would have thought that possible 24 months ago? Not me, that's for sure.
I still read here occassionally when I need to remind myself of why I went through all of this, and for a much needed attitude adjustment; which I need plenty. Life's good. My W and I are enjoying and supporting each other, work is moving forward, and I love being home to spend time with my son. Sure, I have my ups and downs, but on the whole, I am in a substantially better place than I was two years ago. I am more open, more attentive, more understanding, more centered, and more loving. We've all been through the early days of NC, so we know how low and hard those days can be. It's interesting to look back and mark the milestones of growth. It's hard, but keep with it. We all stuggle, but we all figureout how to make it through.
Now, there's a reason I am posting, right? As I said, I have my ups and downs. I'd love to say that at 18 months out I don't have any of those "wants" that AlwaysLolly so concisely described in her post. I do. I have plenty of days where I think about her and wonder what she is up to, but the thoughts pass quickly and without incident. I continue to be fortunate to not run into her physically at work, but our paths still cross virtually from time to time. That happened today, I caught myself on one of those moments, so I came to EAS to see how everyone is coping. Lolly's post resonated, so I thought the ONE thing I'd do differently today is to post a quick update. So, here I am. :-)
Anyway. I am sending you all lots of love and support.
Keep committed, keep focused, and keep your NC.