Scared to take the next step....
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|Fri, 10-12-2012 - 12:48pm|
This will be long...I met my next door neighbor around Christmas last year. We lived next to each other for four years but had never met. I always saw him playing with his son and thought he was a good father. I was married so never thought much of him. Then I went thru a divorce and kept the house. I decided being a single woman living alone I should get to know some of the neighbors. We both happened to be scooping snow at the same time so I introduced myself. I found out he was single also. The next night he invited me over and I spent the night. We hit it off as friends. We started to become close but if we started getting real close he would pull away. At the end of February I got pissed and stopped talking to him. In March I went on vacation and stopped over to see him before I left to ask if he would keep an eye on my house. He said sure. We hung out that night and had a great time. We stayed up talking to 4 am. He told me sorry for pulling away and that he didn't want to be more then friends because he didn't want to ruin our amazing friendship. While I was gone we texted non stop. He can make me laugh like nobody else. When I got back we continued our friendship and started to get closer again. In May I started dating a guy. I told him and I kinda backed away. I broke up with the guy in July. My neighbor invited me over to celebrate my birthday. He made me dinner and his son gave me a home made card. It was sweet. He asked if I could watch his son for a day so he could go on a big bike ride. I said sure. His son told me he wanted me to marry his dad. I told him his dad and I were just friends. He said I know but you will become best friends, then bf and gf, and then you will get married. This scarred me so I backed off. I put my house up for sale because it was too much house for just me. My neighbor was sad. His son wanted me to move into their basement. My house sold fast and he was so sad to see me move away. I told him where I was moving and he was OMG, I use to live in that very apartment. (Crazy I know). He once told me he loved me but he didn't want to ruin our friendship. Since I have I think he has realized how he feels about me. He is just different around me. Like really sad when I leave and so on. Anyway my best friend keeps telling me to get over my fears and date him. When people find out we know each other they always make the comment you too should date you would be so perfect for each other. Last night he called and we were talking and found out we are both going to Minneapolis the same weekend. He told me we should both sneak away and go to a haunted house for a little bit. I told my friend and she was like, duh sneak away I am OK with it. I feel like he and I are meant to be together but I am scarred!! What do I do?