I hate my life today (sorry, long whine)

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I hate my life today (sorry, long whine)
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Sat, 09-16-2006 - 12:24pm

I'm so crabby today, you could make gumbo out of me.  I feel like an ugly, scruffy rat on an endless treadmill.  I work with a great therapist, but sometimes the depression still jumps up and bites me -- like today.


Our office is being remodeled, so on top of the OT I've been working we had an office move on Thursday.  If you've ever been through it, you know what fun it can be.  For a day and a half all my work papers were boxed up so I couldn't do a thing.  And just to make it even more fun, my new cubicle was the last one to be assembled, so for an hour and a half I just had to sit and twiddle my thumbs.  I should have brought my knitting, I guess, except that one of my co-workers can't see what I'm making until her shower.   And I thought my boss was going to move me a couple of seats away from the trainee, but no, I'm still right next to her.  That means I'm not allowed to wear my perfume to work (she claims to be allergic), and I'm interrupted with questions I've answered several times already.  She's bragged to everyone how organized she is.  She's organized, all right -- she's so busy organizing the area, she doesn't have much time left for actually doing the work.  She put out little baskets of paper near all the printers.  Nice -- except she's been asked several times not to because the paper gets covered with dust, which damages the printers (and with the construction, there's twice the dust).  I'm struggling to come up with a polite way to tell her I really don't have time to discuss whatever lurid case is dominating the headlines today, and that she should get the *&%$ off her phone calls to her family and friends and get the claims out the door -- they're our bread and butter, and the most important job function.  I'm not bragging on myself, but when I did the job, I managed to beat the one o'clock mail deadline almost every time.


But what's eating me today is that my life feels like a gray blur.  I know that's not entirely true -- I'm volunteering at the annual Celtic Music Festival next weekend, and I have tickets to the two main concerts on Thursday and Friday (both groups I've seen before, and they're both AWESOME).  But I'm having trouble getting out of the rut of damaging myself -- with food, with not keeping my room and my car clean, with not fixing myself up.  I have tons of jewelry and makeup, all of which sits untouched.  I manage to find plenty of time in the morning for my email and the newspaper -- then rush out of the door with no makeup or accessories, in the same old clothes (the dresses are gathering dust).  Sometimes I don't even feel like a woman, just an ugly blob.


Sorry for the long whine -- I just feel lousy today.

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Registered: 06-30-2004
Sat, 09-16-2006 - 12:31pm

((hugs)))


I understand, I feel that way alot myself.

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Registered: 01-13-2006
Sat, 09-16-2006 - 12:40pm
((((((Hugs))))))!! We all have days when we feel that way. I hope you feel better as the day goes on. Is there anyway you can talk to your boss about being moved? Maybe he/she forgot?
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Registered: 09-01-2003
Sat, 09-16-2006 - 1:08pm
hugs to you. hopefully you can find something to keep busy & cheer up. next weeknd soulds like a fun time!
sorry to hear you have to work next to annoying girl. can you talk to your supervisor to get moved?
i hate it too when the blues drop in in uninvited.i too sit here and play on the puter instead of what i should be doing.
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Registered: 03-19-2003
Sat, 09-16-2006 - 1:13pm
{{{Mary}}}
You're not alone you know ..
Many of us have days like that ..
Good news is you have neat things to look forward to.
Try focusing on those & hopefully it will help :)

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Registered: 03-05-2004
Sat, 09-16-2006 - 6:55pm

Hugs & uplifting prayers coming your way.


(((Mary)))


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Sun, 09-17-2006 - 7:34am

Hi mary and welcome to the Sand Box.