HELLO MY FRIENDS

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Registered: 09-01-2003
HELLO MY FRIENDS
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Sun, 11-15-2009 - 7:51am

needed to pop in and say hello. i am doing good...just so sad and heartbroke. trying to come to terms with this all.it is not sinking in all the way but will someday.my sil & family are doing ok.i worry about them alot. one niece is due to have her baby in a couple weeks.i have to call tonite to check on everybody.justin was a pallbearer.he is not doing good.he is very angry..and sadly punched a wall & broke his hand. sigh....
the service was beautiful.i love they played dvd of charlie on the big screen. my son justin made part of it..so beautifully done set to FIRE & RAIN by james taylor.charlie is buried right next to his grampie joe- my exfil. phil passed away 10 years ago & yet all around him was empty plots. coincidence? no...meant to be. the family bought it all.
the hardest part for me now...how to tell jeremy. it was reccomended not to tell him as he was in field training.so on thanksgiving day i have to do this by myself..the ex can't make it. he did explain but the cynic in me is not buying it.i will have a chaplain and others from his squad with me with me.it will be very rough and i will be taking full wrath..he will be very angry..to say the least
thurs nite we all got drunk- yes me...the nondrinker...lol now i know why i do not drink..and so much.justin's father decided to leave early friday so did not get to spend time with him.

my friend- ok...he has a name- wayne- he has been great...holding my hand and just being there.he took very good care of me.he did not go to services and that was ok. it would have been awkward but i felt his support.
for now i have to get back to the real world.so much to do this week!i leave in 9 days to texas!!!
today is a full day- church & work.i will pop back in later or in the morning. have a wonderful day everybuddy :O)

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Registered: 09-12-2003
Sun, 11-15-2009 - 10:05am
my heart goes out to your and your family.. you have lots of support from your family so that will help along the way.
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Registered: 09-01-2003
Sun, 11-15-2009 - 10:29am
thank you suzan.i just talked to justin. he sees the ortho tomorrow for his hand...it needs a pin.so he will be out of work.hard part is he has no health insurance.i have tried to get him to buy a policy on his own..even showed him how to get it. eh...kids....
i am going to call mae later to spend time together tuesday.i'm thinking she is not ready to be alone too much & might need a ride somewhere for errands.
wayne is a really great guy..he is very easy going and makes me laugh.....i'll keep him around awhile.
i wasn't up to church this morning. i sat in prayer in a quiet spot.
i guess i should get some stuff done around the house before work..
have a great day

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Registered: 09-12-2003
Sun, 11-15-2009 - 2:32pm
Oh my goodness
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Registered: 03-14-2007
Sun, 11-15-2009 - 6:26pm

Oh, gosh, so much pain and sorrow and grief and there's still more to come. My heart hurts for you dear friend. It's going to be so hard to tell Jeremy. Bless your heart! Good you'll have grief support with you at that time. Wonderful that Wayne is such a great guy and standing by you. God knew just the right time to put him into your life. Take good care of yourself now, get needed rest, eat well, relax the stress away as you are able, and know we're all here in your corner!


{{{{Special Hugs}}}}


~~ Donna


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Registered: 09-01-2003
Tue, 11-17-2009 - 8:00am
i would love for justin to go to texas with me.it would be so expensive to get a ticket right now.

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Registered: 09-01-2003
Tue, 11-17-2009 - 8:08am

i am so blessed with wonderful friends and family :O) yes...wayne is a blessing and have told him so.


i am worried about family with the holidays coming up so soon.it will not be very easy time.


i have been eating and getting sleep.it was good to get back to work too.


all my preperatons for texas is keeping me very occupied. so much to do & so little time. ..especially with my crappy work schedule. now i have to say...i am happy

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Registered: 08-01-2004
Tue, 11-17-2009 - 1:53pm

I'm sorry that you're going through so much. Just like my mom told me, things will get better. I hope you have a happy and safe trip to Texas and I hope the best for you and your family.