I feel like I could scream
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|Sat, 04-05-2003 - 2:46pm|
It just makes me want to haul off and hit someone when my boss tells me all about his new BMW, how he just bought his daughter (who isn't old enough to drive yet) a brand new car, all the vacations he's been taking lately, when he isn't even giving me enough hours at work so I can pay my rent and electricity. AND THEN he had the nerve to say "I'm not running a charity" when I asked if he could give me more hours. AARRGGHH!!! And I don't qualify for help from the government because I own a car (god forbid, it's for work). When I told him I was going to start looking for a second job because I need to have enough money to live on, he acted insulted like it was personally going to affect his life. I got the impression that he just wants me to have all available hours so I can be on call all the time, just in case one of his other trusted employees doesn't show up for work, which is often. Sheesh, you'd think after he was paying these people 1 1/2 times what he's paying me, plus the fact that he gives them full time hours, they'd at least show up to work on time.
I mean, I went to college for this? I can't even find a job in my field. I can't even find a job in a semi-related field. Heck, I can't seem to find a job that pays more than minimum wage. The jobs just are not there.
And then I found out my husband has been hiding somehting and lying to me about it for the past five years. I'd divorce him but I can't afford to. I mean, I can afford to do the divorce but I need whatever pittance of a paycheck he brings in or I'm really gonna be out on the street with my three kids. I have nothing to fall back on as far as a way to bail my behind out of this mess.
If anyone has soon good sage advice on the subject I'd thoroughly appreciate it. Anyone who's been through something similar, if they could tell me what steps they took to get out of it. Oh, and I'm severly depressed too so if anyone has a way of dealing with that as well I would be open to suggestions.