OT - thinking of quitting
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|Tue, 05-20-2003 - 3:48pm|
I know this is totally irresponsible but I just can't take it anymore. Everyday I go home crying, and almost every night I go to bed hoping that I will never wake up. On sunday I am depressed because monday I have to go to work. Now it has gotten so bad that I am thinking about memorial day weekend and thinking 'yay a 3 day weekend, that means only 4 days of work the next week, gosh I have to work 4 days next week! what am i going to do, how am I going to get through it.'
Right now financially we are doing ok, pretty well actually, I have been paying down our debt and saving a little, so that now we only have $9000 on the car loan and $2700 on one credit card. (plus our mortgage and student loans that are in deferrment) So I figure if I quit and get another job making 2/3 of what I make now, (I only contribute 1/3 of my income to monthly bills and currently the other 2/3 is going to savings and debt) then I could still meet our bills, it would just take us a lot longer to get out of debt. and we would need to stick to our budget better.
I just dont know, my parents always fought about money becuase they didnt have enough of it, I said I never wanted to be like that. So I feel so irresponsible for wanting to give up a good job, but I really dont know how much longer I can go on like this. I was planning for a year and a half then I would have enough saved to go to law school starting fall 2004, but I really dont think I can take it that long. This job is ruining my life. I am getting sick - migraines mostly but other stress related stuff - and my relationship with my husband is suffering.
I guess I just want some objective opinions. DH says that I should try to do something proactive at work (like asking to be transferred to a different position or department) to help the situation and if that doesnt work then quit. I really dont think that will work (my company is now known for moving people easily) but I am willing to try as long as I have the backup of being able to quit.
Am I totally crazy for thinking this is an option?