Update to my "totally torn" post...

To Heather: thank you for the ideas about professional training seminars. I'm not sure if I would like to pursue that right at the moment, but it is something that I will most definitely keep in mind. I think that I could be good at that and I may try to get into it in the future.

To momof2boys: yes, we are planning to move to Edmonton sometime--maybe next year or maybe in 2005. It depends on a few things. My bf is from there--the south side fairly close to Whyte Ave. I really liked it there and the housing is much cheaper. What is real estate like in Calgary? For example, do you have any idea the average price of a single family home--average type of house? In Victoria (bc) the average single family home price is about $250,000. I don't know if that factors in condos or not, I don't think so. We are just hoping for better housing prices and hopefully a better job market.

Thanks to everyone for the responses. I had kind of a tough week last week for various reasons, but I am going to try to reel myself in and stop the charging. Last weekend I bought two new pairs of shoes (total: $257.63). I had to have comfortable shoes. I couldn't do Payless shoes again because they just cripple my feet. I will wear these shoes until they fall to bits. One pair will be good for winter as well as summer. I also had to make the investment in professional, decent shoes for work. I was getting embarrassed with my other shoes that I was wearing to work. Then with other charging I have added about $350 of new debt (incl. shoes) in this last week.

My new charges were all on one card that had a low rate balance transfer, so to avoid paying the high interest on the $350 of new charges for the however long it takes to pay off the balance transfer, I transferred the whole thing ($1900) to another card with a low rate until paid off APR...and I also transferred the last $600 that I owe my bf to the same card, so my last $2500 of credit card debt is all consolidated on one card. I still have $100 or so on the visa that is used only for my online shopping. That shouldn't take long because most of that I am going to return. So things feel good. I will be so glad to have bf paid off and now I will just have the one amount to focus on. I am hoping to pay the $2500 off by my birthday in mid september. I am also taking $500 out of savings, and that is the balance of what I owe bf (along with the $600 balance transfer). I am planning to focus mainly on rebuilding the savings and I will let the credit card debt just sit for a bit. Having that savings calms me down.

Thank for listening and as always, I appreciate having you all around.