I hate the holidays....
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| Thu, 12-09-2004 - 1:07pm |
I hate this time of year. I don't even want to go to my family's house for Christmas. I'd rather stay home alone. I have no money to buy anyone anything. My credit cards are taking all my money. I just gave half of my next paycheck away (the last paycheck I get before Christmas) because Wells Fargo was going to send my account to a lawyer today. I had to pay it or I would be sued.
Has anyone ever been sued by a credit card before? What happens?
I owe another $150 on another card that paycheck, plus about $100 each on 3 other cards. That takes up all of my paycheck and then some. What do I have left over? NOTHING. Not even some money so maybe I can buy some food and gas for myself. I get NOTHING.
I work and work and work and I don't even get paid! I feel like a slave! And I have a professional job - I have a bachelor's degree and five years of experience in my field. And I do really good work. When I graduated college, I was so excited about making money, but my boss pays me crap. Should I tell him about my debt problems? I am a good person - why am I being punished like this?
I rang up a lot of my debt when I was married, because I was trying to save my marriage by going on vacations and out to eat, then I rang up more debt when I separated (at age 23 because my ex was abusive) because I had to pay rent on my own and it was so hard going from two incomes to one, then I was laid off from my job and unemployed for 8 months. Finally I get a job, but the pay is way less than what I used to make. And so therefore, I'm just stuck in this dark hole, drowning, with my head barely above water and its sinking. I hate this. I hate the holidays. I hate feeling like a slave. I want to make money like everyone else does and have things like clothes that fit and aren't faded (I'm supposed to wear nice suits to work), my hair cut (my split ends just look horrible), and maybe something to eat for lunch besides crackers. This is so depressing.

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