Sunday morning

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Registered: 09-22-1999
Sunday morning
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Sun, 05-29-2005 - 8:44am

Today I either make a hurdle, or I run into it and injure myself: I know that if I stay way from shopping today and continue with my cleaning project that I will be doing myself a lot of good, but I really want OUT OF THE HOUSE today. I mean the wanderlust has me SOOOOOOO BAD right now. I am sort of planning my "escape," but there is no escape. I could blow a deadline (long story I have not expained, but I am sort of under the gun to clean and organize a couple things) with the cleaning project and spend all my snowflakes and even use the credit cards...............I don't want to do this, but I just want to run screaming out of the house right now with my hair on fire.

I am trying to come up with an acceptable plan B which is going out to the coffee shop I just love out of town for breakfast and a liesurely drive and then be home before the end of the morning.....?????......I don't know. It is cheaper than going ot the outlet mall. That I know. I did that yesterday. It was wonderful.

Well, I am planning a possible daytrip for next weekend which I won't be able to afford if I spend this weekend. And I know that all my cleaning and reading and crafting and exercising plans seemed so good earlier, but I think I just feel really confined by the house and the debt situation today. I think I'll take a walk later to clear my head.....

Well, thank you for letting me rant for a minute.

I'll be fine. Actually, by writing this down (and I will rewrite this in my journal) I now feel better, and it all makes sense. I can get thru today without visiting A STORE.

And, actually, I did make some progress condensing some stuff in the house yesterday which felt good. It still looks like I have done nothing here because I have pulled a lot more things out, but progress is being made. BUT, as I was going thru all the stuff, I was getting like that BLAH feeling of TOO MUCH STUFF and no where to put it....I am getting some control over it which also feels good.

You know, I NEED to make a snowflake payment today. I think THAT will cheer me up. I'll go do an electronic one once I am done here.

I was just thinking, this must be like wrestling an alligator.............I must win!!!!!

Littlesbigs

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Registered: 09-22-1999
Sun, 05-29-2005 - 7:14pm

Here's my evening update on the day so far....

I ended up going out to the coffee shop, and it was lovely until my cell phone rang and I had to spend the rest of my coffeeshop visit dealing with family problems. I was so frustrated that I stopped in a bookstore, but I didn't intend to buy anything, and I did not. So did end up in a store, but it wasn't damaging.

The cleaning finally started, and is is going well so far. I am looking forward to a long night of it ahead of me. It's like peeling an onion...layers and layers of stuff. Forgotten stuff. Old stuff. Stuff that is not my stuff. Stuff that needs to go. Stuff I would NEVER part with. BUT, as I make my way thru, I am feeling more and more in control and able to part with more as I go. And the organizing will be lengthy as well...I still don't know exactly what I'm going to do with what I keep, but ..... it is all progress.

I found some book I forgot I had with some daily meditations in it for women, and it had a few things to inspire me about this project. Mainly, it said that if you no longer use the items, get rid of them. So I am asking myself if realistically will I ever use it???? If not, I get rid of it.

And how this all is helping me with my debt situation again.....I am feeling more in control. I can see what I have, and I have a lessened urge to go out and spend SO FAR. I am creating new space (negative space according to that book) that I want for myself, not for new stuff. I feel a little lighter. I know I can get thru the next couple of days not spending...but definitely SNOWFLAKING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Littlesbigs