Cranky Saturday morning

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Registered: 09-22-1999
Cranky Saturday morning
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Sat, 07-23-2005 - 6:58am

It’s been a hectic work week, and now I don’t even get a real weekend because we have to some computer program installations at 5AM on Sunday….NO rest for the weary, and I am weary. This is in addition to the usual 40 hour work week, and there is no compensation except for a few donuts. At least I hope there are donuts. I’m trying to avoid junk food now, so I don’t need donuts. I need cash, but being salaried and non-exempt, I don’t get paid extra for extra time. This is my first time doing this. Last weekend I heard and saw the leftovers of some huge buffet that was set up by the team… Well, the reason I say this is because I have been working 40 hour weeks since I started this new job 4 months ago, and it’s been fine. In my prior job, I was paid hourly and promised overtime when the job started, but in one year there was not one single minute of overtime, and I really needed it at the time to make up the difference in the gap in the salary they promised me and what I was actually supposed to make. This was after being unemployed for a year.

I really feel like I am living on a fixed income. I can’t get another job because I have to be available for this one all the time. In another prior job, in one year, my working hours went from 37 hours to 50 mandatory hours, and although my salary was not reduced, I essentially was subjected to a pay cut because I was working more and not paid any more. And there was no time to work another job. (And then 50 hours turned into 65 hours, and it still was not enough....)

The beauty of taking the bus to work is that I HAVE to go home…It‘s my ride….I’ll say, “if you want me to come back I will, (parking will then be free at the company garage)” because I have to to be a team player, but they don’t ask me to, and I’m glad about that. Well, they haven’t asked me to yet.

I am also resisting getting a laptop computer because then I’ll HAVE to take work home. I just am so tired of being put in a position where I have to do so much extra work on my own time for NOTHING. I have done A LOT in the past on my own time, and then I never got recognized for it in any way except a lousy non-monetary thank you. (Never was acknowledged on my reviews.) It’s like I think I have to do all this work to KEEP MY JOB, but then it doesn’t really matter anyway…after all, I got laid off 2.5 years ago anyway.

Well, some of these thoughts are being stirred up because I was recently offered an opportunity at the old job where I got laid off. It’s an open-ended offer for now, and I’m thinking about it. This new job is really starting to irk me. I guess that doesn’t help. I have a lot to think about. If I go back to the old place there are a lot of pros and cons as well.

Well, this relates to debt because I just can’t seem to get ahead. I would think if I was working more, I should be getting a benefit from it, but in this new economy, it seems I have to keep scrambling to maintain my positions at work, with my debt, with my sanity. It has nothing to do with making more money, but just keeping my head above water and making sure I have a job to go to everyday. This no way to live…..

I’m just not feeling very optimistic in general this morning. I don’t really get a weekend to relax this weekend, so I’m stressing out. If none of this meakes sense, don't worry about it.....

I’m broke until my next paycheck, and the bills are rolling in for that check to pay. I’ve been trying to do some snowflaking, but there is stress on my finances right now, so I’m not able to snowflake with confidence. By the way, I have to save my money for these happy hour and luncheon things at work this week I have to attend for team building…not happy about that. It’s about $50 in total for all this.

Well, the bills will be paid, and I’ll live. I’m so cranky this morning! I’m not having fun.

Littlesbigs

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Registered: 09-07-2003
Sat, 07-23-2005 - 7:44am

((((Hugs))))

It's not really a proper response.... a lot of what you typed though is VERY familiar..and its 6:30am and Im here at work...by myself...planning a 10 or 12 hour day today..most of which will be in the other room...with no AC...so....wanted to commiserate with you some! :)

I check the boards inbetween updating my database so I don't feel so 'alone' out there.

Anyway, no time to type out a proper answer, but...Hugs to you

~ Teresa

Teresa
http://www.affordingpickles.blogspot.com

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Registered: 09-20-2004
Sat, 07-23-2005 - 12:48pm

Littlebigs,
A very close friend of mine took to putting a smily or frowny face on her calendar each day when she came home from work. She did this for about two months. When that time was over, and she had way more frowny faces on her calendar than smiles she was able to quit her job and move on without second guessing her decision. (maybe you've thought of this)
There have been a dozen times I've wnted to quit my job over the past eight years, but when it comes down to it, I've stuck around because being around as long as I have makes me entitled to a few nice perks including extra vacation time

Anyhow, I hope things get just a little less stressful for you as the week goes on, and that your cranky Saturday becomes a bit more mellow...

Hang in there!!!! (HUGS) Heather

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Registered: 05-30-2003
Sat, 07-23-2005 - 11:26pm

Wow. I know that it's very scary to feel like you *have* to do all this just to keep your job, and it's less than no fun to have no downtime to recharge.

I don't know what else to say, except hang in there!

Hugs to you-

Lisa

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Registered: 03-26-2003
Sun, 07-24-2005 - 10:27am

Hey Litties - sorry that work is ging kind of blah.

All my best,
Danni