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| Thu, 10-27-2005 - 6:32pm |
So glad to be home. I hate my job. At least it pays bearable wages.
I may be obsessing, but all this news on TV and the newspaper about the coming winter's prices for energy and food are really bothering me. I keep thinking that not only am I trying to eliminate debt, but I am also going to be paying so much more for necessities...and everything is going to be pulling at my paycheck. I can't even think of Xmas.....Well, there are a few days left to October, and so I guess I'll start feeling wintery in November, start seeing all this news start to affect my cheking account! I keep thinking this will be a long winter.
I feel lately like I can't win....That no matter how much work and effort I put into anything, I'm not going anywhere. I can't give up, because I might backslide...so I guess going nowhere is better than backwards.
Xmas..........ugh...........where am I going to get the money????????????????
I'm not feeling really upbeat today, but I guess there's always tomorrow......
A very cranky Littlesbigs

Hugs!
I still lurk here occassionally. I have read a lot of your posts over the years and I wanted to say that they have always helped and inspired me.
If you have a job where you can avoid being bombarded by media, I suggest avoiding television and newspaper "news." I'm in no way saying ignore what's going on in the world, just look for different sources. I read news online from various major news providers and by avoiding the banner ads and the freedom from tv and newspaper ads, I choose what I want to read and I can get both a wider selection of topics in the same time as the evening news and I can also read the same stories and see what the different slants/biases of the different networks are. It helps me anyway. I get news without the doom and gloom pressure that I find accompanies the tv news.
Also, as frustrating as it is not to be making huge strides, holding steady is still so important. It's way better than going backwards.
Hope some of that helps you.
Dear Rebeccalouise,
Thank you! You're right..I may need to change my news source.... Yes, I'm going to keep hanging in there, even if I'm just holding steady...there are just a lot of things I'm holding steady with right now, and I'd like to see some positive change. I just sometimes feel that I am doing so much already to hold on, and how much more effort do I have to put in to inch ahead???? Well, I will keep trying....and trying, and trying......
Best wishes,
Littlesbigs
Hey littlesbigs - you know what?
All my best,
Danni
Sending you some hugs, Littlebigs!
The upcoming Winter has me a big worried also. It's just that no one seems to know exactly how much our heating costs will go up. Cable news and local news have their own percentages, and then they have experts who come on and say it's either going to be worse or it's not going to be so bad at all. I don't like the uncertainty when it's something I really need to budget for.
We had to turn on our heat here (Georgia) a few days ago. Dh was off on business, so I set the thermostat at 65 one night...which was an improvment over last year's 68. Then the next night, I set it to 64 just to see how that felt. Then I tried 63 and felt comfortable with that. Dh came home yesterday, and I let him feel what 63 degrees felt like, and he said this morning that he didn't feel cold during the night. So tonight, it's going down to 62, and we will keep dropping it by one degree until we are no longer comfortable, and then we'll raise it a degree higher and keep it there. I invested in some $2.99 fleece throws from a discount store, and we've all got thermal undies and extra warm socks, and hats and mittens. If we're just sitting around the house, we can make ourselves feel warmer with clothing and blankets this winter. Even our dog has a nice warm sweater and boots to keep him warm. :-D
As for Christmas, I think the heating costs are going to really make it hard for a lot of people. The stores will likely miss their numbers this quarter also. Not to mention all the companies (including several big ones here in Atlanta--like Delta Airlines) are laying off workers and then there's the Hurricane victims who have lost their jobs/income.
I think I'm just going to have a very simple Christmas this year. Go back to the non-commercialized way that I spent Christmases as a child. When just taking a candy cane off the tree to enjoy while watching a holiday special on TV was a big moment in my life. :-D
In past years, I've always made myself too busy to do the community tree lighting ceremony or the decorating of our neighborhood party (street signs, lamp posts, etc), but this year, I'm going to bake up some cookies to share and go! :-D It's low-cost, and I'll get to share in some holiday joy with others, listening to Christmas songs, etc. I also plan to make some time for myself, just a quiet moment to sit at home with some holiday music playing, no other lights other than those on my Christmas tree shining into the room, and just sit and sip some hot chocolate and find my joy that way. :-D No frantic running around or trying to get from this party to that party, etc. Just have a nice relaxing, cheap, Christmas. :-D
I hope your job gets easier for you! :-D
Hugs,
Pat :-D