Sunday early morning

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Sunday early morning
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Sun, 05-14-2006 - 1:26am

It has been a weird week....My SO and I were trading stories continuously all night about all the crazy things that have been going on.......Little bits and pieces of things that are just out of our control that are happening to us at home,at work, the family.......I just want to be in control of my own self.....of the debt and the debt journey.....lately, it's just really tough, harder than usual.....and life is getting more complicated. I just wanted a simple summer, and it is just not on the schedule.

The rolling commentary of the evening was about making choices, esp. those hard choices that you know are right, but no one agrees with you....Sometimes you HAVE to stick your neck out, stick to your guns, and JUST DO IT. This is YOUR life. You have to make decisions that are best for YOU, and whatever anyone else says, you have to ignore them. Things like weeding out those toxic relationships....dropping those pointless, expensive rituals....pursuing something you believe in to the next level even if everyone else thinks your interest is silly.....

I had an interesting day today...I was sick for a good part of it, but I did enjoy just laying on the sofa doing nothing but floating in and out as I rested......I was trying to have a day where I didn't spend much. I stopped at the grocery store and had a cheap dinner out with SO, but it was nice to just be home and spend some time just being.....and not spending money, and not thinking about money/debt, and enjoying what I already have. I want to have a similar day on Sunday, and I am looking forward to having time to start picking thru a drawer or a box or the pile of junk on top of the coffee table.........I did begin to organize a binder with my financial life info in it when I had a little more energy today. I did feel a bit satisfied with the results of my efforts and non-efforts today.

There is just some pressure in my mind right now to get organized better because of some of the things I am anticipating in the near future. I want to have more control over the STUFF in my life.........I'm feeling less in control right now(work, family,my home, the debt).....I just want things to get better......

Interest accumulating on my debt is really starting to annoy me. So are the rising interest rates..........When is this going to end?

Well, I am going to have a good Sunday for myself.....I am going to do what I have to do relax and get ahead a little bit ....might have to take the phone off the hook......

Let's keep breathing! Littlesbigs

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Sun, 05-14-2006 - 2:10am

Hello littlesbigs,


I know that it seems like your life is out of control, but you can *only*

Sincerely,
Lindsey Schocke

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