Sunday morning

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Registered: 09-22-1999
Sunday morning
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Sun, 06-04-2006 - 7:55am

I am just breathing this morning. That's about all I can do. I feel like I am going down the chute into the hole of frustration never to see daylight again....... I am in a horribly frustrating position with money and work and family....all pulling at me and not helping me make anything better. Somehow I will turn these voices off so I can survive, but the challenge is becoming riduculous.

Once again, the car needed a repair, and thankfully it was not so much a repair, but a cleaning and a few non-engine parts replaced. Still cost me over $250 I don't have, so it went on the debt pile. The debt pile I am maintaining at a certain level but not able to shrink. (I am bouncing up and down in a certain range. Is anyone else sort of at a PLATEAU, too??????) The car is getting older, but it still performs very well, so I am happy about that, but I know that I will need a new car within the next 3 years,and so I am trying to keep myself under control and not SPEND SPEND SPEND so that when the time comes I can afford the car payment, but I am a LONG way from being able to do that.

Just a lot of pressure on me now.

And job interviews, too!!!!

My emergency fund is not growing...no money right now for it.

I have an event coming up soon, so I have to take money for that for food and incidentals, but I KNOW I cannot spend much when I am attending it. BUT I know I don't want to buy new junk to fill up the house when I am trying to purge junk from it, but I don't have much time lately to work on the housecleaning project, certainly not today trying to prepare for the interview.

FOCUSING ON THE POSITIVE (or else I will gag and pass out): I am full of things to do for my own entertainment this summer, and that is a blessing. I don't have to drive far to have a "getaway" because the pool here is awesome, and it doesn't really look like an apartment pool. I do pretend I am at a resort. I don't have to spend much on summer clothes...I think I have enough work clothes to get by, and I thought about it recently and realized that all I wear at home in the summer is t-shirts and jeans, so I don't need to buy anything this year for non-work. I have t-shirts I bought last summer I have not worn yet.

I am just going to breathe the rest of the day away.........try to focus on the positives of my life. I am overwhelmed with all the stuff I have to attend to, but I will hope for a good outcome for all of it.

Please hang in there with me! An overwhelmed Littlesbigs

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Registered: 05-14-2003
Sun, 06-04-2006 - 8:59am

Little..I know you have a lot on your plate right now. I feel for you. I wish you had more support other than you SO other around. But this too shall pass.

When you go to your conference let me throw out an idea...DH travels alot and when he does he takes KashiGoLean bars in his suitcase. He eats them for breakfast or on nights when he is super tired and doesn't want to go out. They taste good, they're cheap and he likes them. If he has a car he does a quick trip to the grocery store and buys some water, sometimes some fruit that doesn't have to be cold and bagels....thinking about it-I have made his super cheap....

We are here for you!!

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Registered: 01-06-2005
Sun, 06-04-2006 - 2:50pm

I'm overwhelmed, too.

 

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Registered: 09-22-1999
Mon, 06-05-2006 - 12:03am

Hi, Aravis!

The interview is 9AM tomorrow. I am trying to get ready for it now. I am going to stop thinking about anything else until it is over. That will keep me from feeling overwhelmed..... I hope to know about the result of the interviews by the end of the week. I do not think there are many candidates,and I don't think there are many candidates as qualified as me.

The car is always expensive, isn't it? No fun.

Yes, one day at a time is all I can do right now! Let's hang in there!

Take care! Littlesbigs

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Registered: 09-22-1999
Mon, 06-05-2006 - 12:34am

Dear Chica,

Thanks for the idea! I am just hoping that I get thru the event okay and don't overspend or get forced to overspend...I will be with other people so I have to eat with them, but I think I will avoid buying things......I'm thinking I'll be okay....(There is so much in the house already! I just keep reminding myself of that!)

Best wishes, Littlesbigs